My Dreamscape 躲进我世界的角落

多年后。

2012-01-30T00:28:00.003+08:00

多年后，再次相约。

多年后，再次坐上他的车。

多年后，再次闲聊，谈话。

多年后。

再次再次。

但

以往的情感的眼神的笑容的一举一动，

当初的暧昧的温馨的拥抱的一切一切，

都不在了。

都换不回来了。

换来的

却是独自在流的泪水。

是你那不再爱我的眼神。

与你谈着谈着，

抱歉我有时的确有点不专心，

只因脑海里想的全都是我们的以前。

想念你的笑声。

想念你的问候。

想念你的关心。

想念你的赞美。

想念你的声音。

因为今天过后，才让我更加想念你。

你那自信心爆满却每次大喊自己害羞低调的态度。

我更知道你不是走搞笑路线的，但我会说你搞笑，是因为不管你说什么，都能逗得我挺开心，都能惹我笑，都会很舒服。

X X X

两个人在谈话，我内心却是那么的孤单。

嗯。

多年了。

该是时候放手了。

多年了。

我依然放不了手。

对不起。

心里祝福不了你和她。

“给你一张过去的CD, 听听那时我们的爱情... 有时会突然忘了我还在爱着你........”

好内疚。好无奈。

2012-01-18T22:50:00.003+08:00

只因自己一时的糊涂，让他对我失去了信任。

好难受。

望着他时，感受到了他眼神流露出阵阵凶猛的电波。

好恐怖。

想起当时为什么要做出这样的事，把他气成这个样子。

好愚蠢。

但是，再仔细想想，事情也不完全是我的错，他真的要那么地气吗？

好无奈。

唉，把事情搞得这个样子，我真的真的要负上责任。明知今日，又何必当初叻？

好内疚。

魅力男人之张学友演唱会

2011-12-12T20:33:00.004+08:00

那天，误打误撞的，也还挺幸运的，就购获得了张学友１/２世纪演唱会。

那晚，是个让人难以忘怀的一晚。

歌神不愧是歌神。

当晚学友的唱功有多完美，有多棒，相信真的不需再多论了；当晚的舞蹈有多好看，有多到味，也不需再说了。

因为真的真的真的很棒。

但其实在观看演唱会的时候，不时有所感触，左边心房也不时隐隐作痛。

听过某些歌的时候，眼泪都不停地在眼眶里打滚... ...　

尤其是　“我应该”、　“如果·爱”、　“一滴泪”、　“心如刀割”、　“我真的受伤了”、“遥远的她”、　“一千个伤心的理由”　等等... ...

统统都是本人较爱的歌曲。

统统都是较悲伤的歌。

也许我真的爱上了悲伤的曲子，对这些扣人心弦的唯美的凄伤的旋律，都会特别的喜好。

尤其是　“我真的受伤了”　... ...

正犹如诉说着我当晚的心情。

“是你变了，是你变了......”

连你也是

2011-11-13T00:28:00.004+08:00

如果我现在告诉你，我即将离开你，你会怎么样？

你会想我吗？

会念我吗？

会觉得很遗憾吗？

还是若无其事，心想，有没有我也没什么分别？

我真的以为你是对我好的。

我差点就信你了。

没想到，你却做出这样的事。

你还要我怎样信你？

当我开始向你投怀送抱，对你敬爱万分的时候，

才发现

原来，

你一直都只在利用我。

这样以来的关心的宠爱原来都是假的。

这，

只让我对你的信任瞬间掉入谷底，

只让我对你那份的崇爱变成了曾经。

原来天下的男人统统一样。

连你也是。

绝望之际

2011-10-28T20:51:00.003+08:00

突然间，生活变得一塌糊涂。

做什么都不对，做什么都不顺。

处处都碰到种种困境，荆棘满满。

学业。

金钱。

事业。

人事。

我真的撑不下去了。

到底途中发生了什么事，我，竟会沦落成这个样子。

我知道我已经令很多很多人失望了。

意想不到，曾经那么风光的我，竟会有今天的这幅样子，这幅败段多多的样子。

一切都由上大学起。

是选错科了吗？

是信念不对了吗？

是头脑不清醒了吗？

是意志力跑掉了吗？

还是，

笨了？

把注意力都投错了点，人就一直往下跌。

老师，你说的没错。

我何时何日才会醒过来呢？

几时才会反省，才会去努力，才会去挽救这一切呢？

小时了了，大未必佳。

这句话，我狠狠地烙在心中。

惭愧了吗？

还过意得去吗？

此时此刻的我，若想离开了这一切烦恼，会否正是问题的答案呢？

逃离这一切厌倦的迷惘的绝望的今天，会否换来美好的明天？

不想活了。

逃避你

2011-10-13T00:13:00.002+08:00

“逃避你卻又期待我可跟你做情人

而用情的深可天昏地暗

逃避你愛是遙又遠得很

而我始終不敢靠近還是不相信能和你合襯.......”

- 容祖儿

无题

2011-09-06T00:02:00.003+08:00

在每个夜阑人静的时候，

都不时把自己弄哭，

原因是什么，却从不知...

只知心酸心痛得无法呼吸，

好像永远都不会再遇上快乐了...

心灵好像破了个洞，

补不了了...

放手

2011-09-02T01:49:00.001+08:00

我明白　

该放手了

打扰了

愿有情人终成眷属

你和她

一定要开心

8月31日

2011-09-01T02:22:00.010+08:00

8月31日

心情好复杂的一天。

终于能见到人生第二个偶像 - 幾米。

也终于见回旧情人了。

对，就是那么的复杂。

见到了幾米，兴奋不已。

兴奋中，也带有一丝丝的感动。

这么多年来，在失落时，在站不起来，抬不起头的时候，除了有第一偶像 - 陈奕迅的歌曲来暖府我的心以外，更有幾米的文字，幾米的图画，纷纷暖和了我那击碎的心。

怎样也预料不到，竟然会能与他见面。

就站在眼前的他，也就是曾经弄哭我的他；安慰过我的他；引我笑的他......

心中顿时有所感触，眼眶含泪.....

他，也一样。

眼见那么多在等待他，支持他，聆听他的读者们纷纷占满了座会席，他也哭了。

当时，真的真的很激动...

他整理好心情，开始与大家分享他的人生故事。（欲读者，请购买以下这本书籍－幾米故事的开始吧！）

分享后，他朗诵了他的两本作品：《森林里的秘密》以及《星空》。

他还播放了《微小的鱼》的动画片。

能够亲耳听见他的声音，他的细腻谦虚的声音，朗诵着他的作品，感觉真的很另类，很不同。同时，竟然感受到一股浓厚的安全感。

眼看着他画的图，耳边听着他那声音朗诵着他笔下的一字一句，啊！好感动好舒服好安全啊！

听到一半，眼泪不知不觉就滑下脸颊了。

这种感觉来得好熟悉，望着幾米的脸孔，突然觉得已认识他好久好久，因为这么多年来，读他的书，就有如与他谈话，与他交流。

分享会后，能够上台索取他的签名，更是我梦寐以求的事啊！

总共索取了６个签名，好开心啊！

签上名的书，都是我很喜爱的书，包括了：《蓝石头》，《你们我们她们》，《幾米故事的开始》，《星空》，《我的心中每天开出一朵花》，还有《幸运儿》...

啊！好难忘的一天啊！

嗯。

毕竟，

也遇上了他。

嗯。

那多年不见的旧情人。

嗯。

见到了他，嘴角竟很自然地往上扬，

心中甜甜的，犹如开了多小花般的。

想起当年，是我选择了离开他，

现在我真的不晓得这选择是对是错。

但是，感觉上他已经move on了。

他似乎已经把我们的过去抛到脑后，从新开始了。

可能他已忘了我，可能他已有了新欢，可能他已不再在乎我了。

想到这里，又觉得自己好傻。

起初以为自己已放下他了。

结果，事过那么久了－该有两三年了，但仍然放不下，仍然痛记在心中。

我相信已没有重来的机会了。

但是．．．

无可否认，他依然是最了解我的那一位。

８月３１日。

嗯。

心情好复杂好复杂。

抱歉

2011-08-09T01:28:00.003+08:00

也许他说得没错，我真的该抽离自己了。

在别人眼里，这样的我真的很愚蠢... 很碍眼... 很令人讨厌...

不会了，我要答应自己，不会了... 真的不会了...

要明白，“老师” 与 “朋友”，或者是 “知己” ，真的有很大的差别...

而我，仅仅是个在他受困时，在他不开心时，慰问他，聆听他的诉苦，帮助他的一位 “老师”...

就那么的简单... ...

真的要抽离自己了，不能再这样下去，因为觉得自己的行为举止真的真的很碍眼......

再加上自己处理事情的态度也越来越不理智了。

真的，

真的很讨厌这样的自己... ...

Baby I'm a Fool

2011-08-01T20:38:00.001+08:00

How was I to know that this was always only just a little game to you?
All the time I felt you gave your heart I thought that I would do the same for you,
Tell the truth I think I should have seen it coming from a mile away,
When the words you say are,
“Baby I’m a fool who thinks it’s cool to fall in love”

If I gave a thought to fascination I would know it wasn’t right to care,
Logic doesn’t seem to mind that I am fascinated by the love affair,
Still my heart would benefit from a little tenderness from time to time, but never mind,
Cos Baby I’m a fool who thinks it’s cool to fall in love,

Baby I should hold on just a moment and be sure it’s not for vanity,
Look me in the eye and tell me love is never based upon insanity,
Hear the way my heart is beating every other moments fleeting,
Kiss me now,
Don’t ask me how,
Cos Baby I’m a fool who thinks it’s cool to fall,
Baby I’m a fool who thinks it’s cool to fall,
And I would never tell if you became a fool and fell in Love.

Someone Like You

2011-02-21T00:16:00.003+08:00

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you, too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead......

The End of the World

2011-01-29T01:39:00.001+08:00

Why does the sun go on shining?

Why does the sea rush to shore?

Don't they know it's the end of the world

'Cause you don't love me anymore?

Why do the birds go on singing?

Why do the stars glow above?

Don't they know it's the end of the world

It ended when I lost your love

I wake up in the morning and I wonder

Why ev'rything is the same as it was

I can't understand, no, I can't understand

How life goes on the way it does!

Why does my heart go on beating?

Why do these eyes of mine cry?

Don't they know it's the end of the world?

It ended when you said goodbye

Don't they know It's the end of the world?

It ended when you said goodbye

死心的理由

2011-01-25T00:20:00.001+08:00

离开我
再也没有决裂的时候
就让灵魂彻底的堕落
喔~喔~

放逐过
还逃不出你的左右

怪只怪我把爱当寄托
一时迷惑一路犯错

给我死心的理由
誓言融雪时别沉默
我的美丽只剩哀愁
怕看见温柔眼眸
怕断了唯一的出口
就无处可躲
你时而热情时而冷漠的双手
夺走了心痛

Look. It's 2011.

2011-01-01T01:29:00.004+08:00

First of all.
Happy 2011 folks.

So it's been a year.
2010.
What have I achieved?
> Well. I've stepped into the degree life in uni.
> Had my first piano degree jury. And passed it *whew..*
> Co-organised a charity concert at uni.
> Went to Taiwan for a choral competition.
> Went to Japan for some student exchange program + homestay.. and learned hell lotsa stuffs from the trip.
> Went to Genting for 2 weeks for caroling job. and get to know my bunch of friends better. and met Mr J.

and...
(in no particular order)
> Broke up with my guy.
> Extract my 2nd wisdom tooth.
> Emo for the umpteenth time.
> Went to S.H.E's concert.
> Won some free tics to Ntv7 inaugural Golden Awards :D
> Malacca revisited.
> Emcee-ed for some dance showcase at Jaya One.
> Added more Eason cds to my collection :)
> Got into a band for the first time (with dearest Yvonne, Jia Wen, Eugene and Justina)
> Consistent yoga classes
> Worked as the usher for the Annual Keris Award
> Was part of the Glee Flashmob at the Gardens :D
> Better relationship with my bunch of colleagues in UCSI Marketing department :)
> and of course, better relationship with my coursemates and hell yeah, i love you all you fun people!!!!!!! :D

But then again, back to 2011.
I'll be less emo. Yes, lesser emo days thanks.
I want to learn how to scat. (the proper way.)
I would like to write songs. And sing them.
I must take extra good care of my voice. I cant afford to lost it anymore.
I want to keep in touch with my Japanese family
I'll draw more.
I'll sing more.
I'll make more artsy crafty stuffs.
I've gotta learn guitar :)
I'll do some catch up with those old friends of mine.
I'll read more. Finish up the books that I've left hanging.
I'll grow taller. Yes I will. I will. grow. taller. heh..
I want to help, still.
I want to be there for people who need me. Always.
I need to fix my procrastination problem :/

I shall live like I'll die tomorrow;
I shall dream like I'll live forever.

Happy 2011, folks :D

绵绵

2010-12-31T00:41:00.001+08:00

和你也许不会再相拥
大概你的体重会抱我造梦
从前为了不想失约连病都不敢痛
到哪一天才回想起我蠢

和你也许不会再通宵坐到咖啡酸了喝也喝不掉
从前为你得无聊宁愿休息不要
谈论连场大雨你窗台漏水不得了

从来未爱你绵绵
可惜我爱怀念尤其是代我伤心的唱片
从来未爱你但永远为任何人奉献
从没细心数清楚一个夏雨天
一次愉快的睡眠断多少的发线

和你也许不会再拥抱待你我都苍老
散半里的步前尘就似轻于鸿毛
提及心底苦恼如像自言自语说他人是非多么好

从来未爱你只喜爱跟一颗心血战
亦怀念那些吸不透的香烟
从来未爱你只喜爱共万人迷遇见
从来没细心数清楚一个夏雨天
一次愉快的入眠断多少发线

Dream On.

2010-11-21T23:02:00.004+08:00

You may eat me up.
You may eat me up now.

You may eat my heart.
You may eat my heart now.

Everything's so quiet I'm hearing nothing.

The heart aint beating, the clock aint ticking.
The heart aint beating, the clock aint ticking anymore.

You may leave me now.
Or you may leave me forever.

Trying to keep you around, but.....

You won't let me dream.
Cuz dreams are for little babies.. you said..
But I just wanna dream...

Let me dream on, let me dream on...
Let me dream on, let me dream on...
Just let me dream on, would you, yeah.....
Just... dream on.....

Trying to hold you, trying to hold you forever, but........

You won't let me dream.
Cuz dreams are for little babies.. you said.. (is that so?)
But I just wanna dream... (wanna dream....)

Lead me into my dreamland
Oh I wish I never have to wake
Lead me into your dreamland
Oh I wish I would just die in there...

Let me dream on, let me dream on...
Let me dream on, let me dream on...
Just let me dream on,
Just let me dream on,
Just let me dream on.....
would you, yeah......

Just.... Dream on...........
(ad lib)

情牵南洋- 主题曲 “流连”

2010-08-19T22:58:00.001+08:00

x
x
x

午夜梦回忽然让我把你想起
你的背影至今我仍难忘记
如果只是邂逅怎会留下痕迹
让我在这个时候想要拥抱你
经过这些年的风雨这些年的努力
我们在不同月光下找到自己
偶然回头望那回忆获得也失去
心牵挂着的你是否平安如昔
闭者眼睛平静地躺坐在摇椅
想象那年离开你的那个花季
身边小溪如果能倒流向回忆
是否我睁开眼就能在遇见你

放空﹒空虚﹒虚构

2010-08-10T01:26:00.002+08:00

顿时觉得很空虚。
心情不定。
欲哭却哭不出。
有言却又说不出。
想念的人，往往不在。
想做的事，往往遇上挫折遍遍。

秒针迅速向前迈进，只剩我独自停留在原点。

滴...答...滴...答...滴...答...

欲放弃，欲哭泣。

但偶然发现，脑袋早已在放空，早已飘逸到无人知之处。

要填补这颗空虚的心，但思绪杂乱，烦躁。
填补不来，也不知该用什么来填补。
爱？工作？满足感？成就感？

到头来，一切的快乐，一切一切的幸福，原来只建立于那虚构的城里，叫 —— 虚城。

Louis Armstrong :)

2010-06-27T16:43:00.003+08:00

.“I never tried to prove nothing, just wanted to give a good show. My life has always been my music, it's always come first, but the music ain't worth nothing if you can't lay it on the public. The main thing is to live for that audience, 'cause what you're there for is to please the people.”

Louis "Satchmo" Armstrong

Ai No Oto~ The Sound of Love - Moumoon

2010-06-23T22:52:00.002+08:00

"Good bye for now" you said
Waving hands, I couldn't smile
I knew it was the last "Good-bye"
Cause your eyes never lie
I walked away from you
I just couldn't turn back
Wished you stopped me, and you held me

I'm missing everything when you're not here with me
But my freezing hands couldn't dial to hear your voice
I really want you to be close like you used to be
But that was then, I don't know how you feel without me

On silent nights I hear this sound
Just like our love fading away
Ah snow flakes falling down so slowly
On my window pane
Before the memories fade away
Until my pain goes away
The only thing I ask from you to do
Oh please be with me

Tell me, oh tell me
What do you see and how you feel
Oh tell me
Where are you now?
Tell me how you feel

I liked the way you think, I liked the way you talk
Holding hands, feeling your lips
Hugging, teasing, squeezing you
I saw us smiling in photographs, then I can remember how we laughed
But the time goes, Can't go back
Memories of you still goes around and around
And my tears from my eyes coming down and down
Wanna tell you how I feel about you right now
But don't know how to say it, I can't find the words to say

The sound of love fading away
Ah I know you can hear it, too
You're so kind, but sometimes it hurts me
Oh don't make me cry

Telling myself that I'm OK without you no more
But I don't want you out of my life because I need you
Before the memories fade away and disappear someday
I wanna see you right now Ah
The Sound of love silencing our hearts through the lonely night
The Sound of snow covering our hearts with moments of the past
With every "Hello" there's "Good-byes"
I know beginnings always have an end
Even though it may be fate

Tell me, oh tell me
What do you see and how you feel
Oh tell me
Where are you now?
Tell me how you feel

The Merry Month of June

2010-06-19T11:20:00.004+08:00

It's my birthday month.
And it's just two days away from today.
Am I suppose to feel excited?
Should I feel great and waits eagerly?
Maybe I should, but I'm not feeling any.
It's the midterm month and gosh everything seems to be falling apart.
I screwed up my minor midterm just now.
And as for band assessment, singing Jamiroquai's Virtual Insanity seemed like an offbeat failure. Or maybe I'm just not meant to sing that song.
and Uni Life final project > charity concert is equally giving me headaches too. All the papaerworks and proposals and all, god let me breathe!
and MIDI assignment (thanks to the umpteen times of failed tries to install that darn Finale2009) , I can only do it in school.
And Intro to Pop History assignment + midterm, apa-apa pun belum start. macam mana ni?
*sigh* and aural!! what's wrong with my ears? Cant even identify some simple seventh chords. Okay maybe not that simple but STILL! T.T
and of course, I still have my choir. Gonna go to Taiwan soon for the international choir competition so yeah that explains late night extra classes at school.
and my major jury. Gives me chills in my heart just to say that word. Pls dun fail me, I'll practise like a mad man but just dont fail meeeeee T.T

yeah listing out all this stuffs kills me, but ironically enough, they motivated me. I get organized and work on it.

So there you go. My merry month of june... (pre-July) =3=

Help!

2010-06-10T22:36:00.005+08:00

I'm going to have a breakdown.
I don't think i can stand it anymore.
Help, I need somebody,
Help, not just anybody,
Help, you know I need someone, help.

When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed anybody's help in any way.
But now these days are gone, I'm not so self assured,
Now I find I've changed my mind and opened up the doors.

Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me?

And now my life has changed in oh so many ways,
My independence seems to vanish in the haze.
But every now and then I feel so insecure,
I know that I just need you like I've never done before.
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The Beatles
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My Very Annoying Brain.

2010-06-06T00:45:00.002+08:00

...
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.
.
Didnt talk to him today, i think.
and yes. it only take me one day, to start missing that guy.
arghh.
what's wrong with me.
stop missing him.
stop missing him.
stop missing him.
wait.
there's nothing wrong.
i just miss my best friend, that's all.
right?
right?
urgh shut up.
have proposals to write.
kthxbai.

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JUNE

2010-06-04T20:38:00.001+08:00

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ohmygawdd it's JUNE.
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im so-dead.
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kthxbai
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The silencer.

2010-05-27T23:52:00.003+08:00

Silence enveloped.
Breathing uneasily.
Awkward situation.
Forceful smile.

Bitchy attitude.
Desperate yell.
Empty rooms.
Suffocating breathes.

Ignorant speeches.
Arrogant struts.
Selfish thoughts.
Silly acts.

Quiet nights.
Still thoughts.
Weary eyes.
Beating heart.

Dying spirit.
Undying hope.
Heavy footsteps.
Significant paths.

Sleep-deprived

2010-05-19T18:57:00.002+08:00

"Ubi Caritas... et amor......"

Yes. the blog title has made it clear enough.
thrid week of school is killing me and in another 3 similar days, i'll die of exhaustion.
ha-ha.
Lotsa stress all over my shoulder. Everyone.
This sem.
>>>>>>
- the vocalist (temporary) in my band
- the little trainee concert choir sectional leader
- the uni life final project assistant leader.
- gonna have piano jury 1.
- have to improve my vocal skills.
>>>>>>

Need to get thru this.
Need to put in more effort.
Need to make sure everything'll be alright.

Bye, bloggie.
for the time being. lol.
shall try to update like as much as possible.
okays.

>:
>:

Glee Flash Mob Dance: KL Chapter

2010-05-08T19:01:00.003+08:00

Thought of blogging more during the holidays but i dunno apa jadi and only manage to blog like one or two posts =.=

And now back to school.

First week of classes. Damn they just can't be any more hectic.. ( worse to come, though )

Timetables were like @#$%&*!

Back to back on some days. Time for lunch? err, we'll see.. =.=

So i guess this means lesser time to blog?

Ok maybe i'll make it a point to blog short posts as often as possible?

Maybe.

Back to today!

Had a hell lot of fun at Glee Flash Mob Dance by Random Alphabets.

More pics and videos might need to wait i'll say.

The pic above is the only one i have. sort of.

Well after 2 nights of rehearsals, tonnes of sweat, muscle ache etc etc, the event is now gaodim and i guessed everyone did a great job!! :)

The officially video for it would be aired on Astro, but oh owhh i tak de Astro lah bro =.=

Anyways, this is the 2nd time i'd joined RA events.

If you remember, the one before was MTP: Merdeka Train Party.

Another hell lotsa fun

And this time around i have Kuok Meng (Ed) with me, so double the fun!!! <3<3>

Thankssssss to him, for being the driver these few days *hugs* ~~

So that's all for now, hopefully i'll have some pics regarding this event in the next post yea .

p/s: I'll be having MBE this sem onwards, and for this sem, i'll have Yvonne, Jia Wen, Eugene and Justina as my bandmates. Kudos to that! Let's cheers for our great sem ahead together! <3>

Signing off,

Gan

HOLIDAY~

2010-04-26T16:24:00.005+08:00

gosh, what a restless week have I been thru.

Outings and gatherings and movies and makan makan etc.

and all of theses definitely spells out my ideal holiday.

Holiday, purely dedicated to my friends and family and yes, just myself.

And i's so so sorry for not being able to blog even more oftenly during the holidays.

Blame the lazy-crazy worm in me, i'll only do a bit of summary of the past week =.=

Let's start with >>

16/4 :

BBQ dinner at Thong Thong's place!

A lil' gathering for us, music peeps , right at the lil' sem break we've got.

Well, her house at Lake Egde (Puchong) was really the bomb!

The view, the area, the architecture, the design, the lake, the garden....

okay okay u got the idea, the place was simply awesome! (and freeeeeeking remind me of Wisteria Lane..)

Yes, this, only means lotsa camwhoring sessions... like every minute, everywhere!

( yesh, vincent was indeed annoyed.. lol~)

KUNG FU??!!!
yesh, the "violent+syiok sendiri" side of music peeps muahahaha~ XD

18/4 :
《初恋红豆冰》

Watched the locally-produced movie > Ice Kacang Puppy Love~

Such wonderful movie i'd say.

It tenderly touched one's heart and fond memories of one's first love would just emerge..

Movie worth watching, A+ ~ :)

And today's the day I bought my Eason Chan album > TIME FLIES ~

i'm absolutely attached to the songs right now.

(ooh yaaa attached is the most appropriate word!)

20/4 :

Russian Chamber Music Concert @ KLCC

Another lovely day with the music people at KLCC for a concert.

Awesome performance, of course.

and bought "The Plague Dogs" by Richard Adams for mummy's birthday + mother's day..

hehe 2 in 1 ~ >.<"

by the way "Watership Down" , also by adams, is definitely a book worth reading..

Pumps your adrenaline like these big waterfall.

Okay maybe i exaggerate a bit ..

21/4 :

Meeting with Dr. P'ng and other lecturers and student reps early in the morning.

Dealing with some issues regarding our studies and subjects and facilities.

Then lunchie with Liang, emmy, linda and sze ern :)

22/4 :

Musical "Properganda" !

Beautiful performances by Ms Rachel Tan (my former choir teacher) as soprano, Bui Yik Ling as soprano, and Shah Johan and Tay Chai Ying as the pianists/accompanists.

And the Dithyrambib singers had a special performance too.

Heavenly voices that just bring one to another lil' world of its own.

23/4 :

Kepong Tour with Liang + Modern Band Concert

*gasps*

this was the most random call-out i tink.

Me, Simmy and Vincent took ktm all the way to Kepong Sentral and met Liang there and had lunch @ Le Classic and dessert @ Mill Wheel Ice Cafe

The people~ <3>

My Lunch!

Ham & Egg Sandwich *yum yum yum*

Dessert time!!!

Our snowy icy dessert!

From top (clockwise) : strawberry ice, mango ice and lychee ice . .

Then we went back to uni and watched School of Music's Modern Band Concert :)

Another awesome night!!

Had a good scare yeah QUEK!! XD

24/4 :

BBQ night at Jeff's House!!

lol.. okay this is the only pic i've got so far.

But MORE are uploaded in fb, so for more, pls check out my fb pics or jeff's ..

And what this night so lovely and memorable and syiok is that I actually managed to make some pretty decent honey-glazed chicken wings!!!!

wheeeee~~~~~~~

ok ok ok,

that's ALL for now.

I've made this a looooooong post. so sorry! >=.=<

more events that follow will gotta fit into the next post.

ciaozzzz

GAN

I'm done with Foundation in Music.

2010-04-15T20:11:00.005+08:00

*breathes*
I'm done with Foundation in Music, I'd said.
This few months had been pretty breatheless to me, and my peeps, i believe.
And now'a the time to blog~ <3>
Really.
Time flies, man.
Events come and go..
Let's refresh our memory..

SHE's Concert>>

SHE's concert with my cousin.. such a surprise and last minute invitation from her on the day itself.. well then and again, we certainly enjoyed ourselves to the max that awesome night..

Loved it!!!

can't wait for the next concert that I shall attend.. wonder whose would it be.. *hmmm*

Dearest Liang's recital>>

One awesome show/performance/classical recital by my BFF Ng Hong Liang!!!

*hugs*

My own recital>>

The day I played Gema Rembulan on stage.....

I still can feel the night breeze and the moonlight of the song...

How nostalgic....

Heart the song...

Choir Concert Night >>

Another wonderful night filled with fun and laughter and tension and good songs and heavenly voices.. :)

Choral performances by three choirs: Ladies choir, Senior choir and Concert choir ( that's the one I'm in..)

Song selections covered a wide range too.

Concert choir even performed an Indian choral piece>Dravidian Dithramb <3>

Awesome..

Choir night always mark the end of a semester.

Same goes to here :)

But for this time around, choir concert means jury is just right after. *gasps*

Jury Day>>

Well this's the only jury-related photo i could find.
Yes, I was eavesdropping on someone's jury.

Simmy's, in specific :P

hmm, well, my jury was kinda okay..

just lil mistakes, i guess those wont kill.. >.< *prays*

and liang's jury was done too by that time.

so the both of us stayed around to see how thing's .

and gosh, I love One-Winged Angel.

Thanks to LOR PHAIK SIM !!!!

*muacks*

So that's all for now..

Take a break now.

Enjoy my holiday.

All i can say is it won't be a boring holiday :)

Wait for next post, about the party at Thong's place.

Signing off,

Gan

Lil Preview of Choir Concert April 2010

2010-04-09T23:35:00.004+08:00

Just a lil preview of what we had yesterday night.
UCSI Choir Concert-April 2010.
Shall blog about this in detail next week.
After my jury that is.
Stay tuned.

GAN.

无名

2010-04-08T14:41:00.002+08:00

工作狂的下一站，会是幸福吗？
没有沟通的感情，是感情吗？

行不通，走不下去了。
请不要记住我。

Of Honey and Petals, Of Jury and Recitals..

2010-03-25T21:53:00.004+08:00

I guess at this moment, most of my peeps wouldn't have the time to blog and update any sort of stuffs.
Why?
Recital.
Jury.
That's why.
Well, just a short update here.
My first recital would be on 2nd April :)
Erm well not really my first recital since i "helped" wei le in his recital last week haha.
Ok back to my own recital.
Am going to play a tune called Gema Rembulan by Jimmy Boyle (yes, the father of my teacher, James Boyle)

And on the hand, gonna play three tunes for jury (12th April) ..
1. Gema Rembulan by Jimmy Boyle
2. Can't Buy Me Love by The Beatles
3. From Russia With Love by Lionel Bart

There you go.
I need to pass this badly, man..
That's the only option, you see.

And oh ya, our School of Music's choir concert will be held on 8th April, 8pm, at UCSI..
come if you are interested ya! :)

So just wish me luck.
To go thru this coming April with, erm, luck? Fun?
nah.
Wish my peeps all the best too.
Let's get thru this together *hugs*

Be Back Soon ..

2010-03-20T23:10:00.002+08:00

March is almost near to its end.
Sorry my time is running out.
I shall blog when I get my time back.
Busy schedules.
Practice.
Jury.
There's no "fail" in my dictionary.
Or that's what I hope for.

Shall be back, soon....

Super delayed CNY post.

2010-03-04T22:50:00.007+08:00

HAPPY CNY.

lol.

gosh. so sorry for the super delay.
cny is so laaast week and im still here posting stuffs about cny.
blame the procrastinate-y gan.
well then again, feb was one hell lot of fun.
absolutely feb-ulously, thanks to the uber happening cny celebration.
a time of joy and fun, and on top of all those, reunions are the best.
so.
you know what.
i'll just keep this sweet and short, and get this done asap.
deal? deal.

>13th feb
lets start with my lil reunion dinner, with maternal relatives.
at Cheers Palace, opp Leisure Mall. Not bad.
well thankfully we reached earlier.
for late-comers, the time they spent waiting was unbearable =.=

>14th feb

cny first day.

before going back to my daddy's hometown> Kuala Pilah, we had our lil' family portrait taken at home. i've always love to go back to KP. such a wonderful place.and wonderful people. in a lil' house where everyone in the family gets together and catch up with each other. cny's real meaning huh? :)

>15th feb

hari kedua.

as the usual routine goes, we headed to grandma's place in just the neighbouring residential area. uncles. aunt. cousins.

and of all (i mean ALLLLL) the pics we took on that day, i've got no idea why would i actually upload this pic.

but yeah, that's the mummy and the son. at my grand aunt's house :)

awwhh, lovely..

>16th feb

hari ketiga.

the guy who always call me budak jiwang. his birthday.

haha yaya it's you, kevin wong miu kee. dai gor zai ady wei.

well family and i went to watch 72 tenants at leisure mall. this was lunch at boston.

after movie was then cny visiting at jervey's house, followed by sis's nanny's house.

cny-gambled for the first time. (for this year i mean, of coz, DUH)

>17th feb

hari keempat.

aha, no pics available! practically i spent my whole day gambling at kiew ming's house.

lol, and no evidence is taken so i might be crapping now too.

who cares.

lol. lost my 40 bucks there.

and learnt how to play mahjong. *wheeeee*

>18th feb

hari kelima.

ah. memorable.
lil' primary school reunion at teacher's house.

Me, Yinn, Shau Chuan, Kah Hou, LCH, Shu Ying, Yv, Jing Kai and his mom :)

after that, all of us (with teacher and her husband and daughter) went to have lunch at a vegetarian restaurant.

Yummy!!!

later on they all came to my house! :)

the one seated>> my teacher!!!! lol..

>19th feb

hari keenam.

steamboat night with parents, grandparents, uncles aunts, cousins, and my dearest kah chun :)

>26th feb

hari ketiga-belas

ok ya i fast forwarded, alot. cuz damn, im getting freeeeking sleepy ady. lol.

so this day, hmm, college peeps came to my house :)

(the pic is right on top)

and geez, lovely day it was indeed!

and for the very first time in my life, we actually bet on peanuts man! lol. awesome.

and night time, we had a wonderful time at jeff chin's house! family fren he is, our whole family was having such a great time there! a wee bit of gambling, karaoke, fireworks, lou sang etc....

and here u go, me and bestie Jervey Choon :)

>27th feb

hari keempat-belas

awwhh. my fav day.

tuition reunion with Ms Foo.

The addmaths gang! *gosh i heart them sooo much*

we had dinner at boston (again) and had a lovely time yeah~

just so nostalgic, for the every moment we spent together, simply reminds me of the days we had addmaths together.

Great tutor+great subject+great peeps=thumbs up results :)

and here's the pic.. awesome with a capital A <3<3

Now, for the time being, that wraps up my cny celebration. *whew*

any more updates, i'll gotta do it laterrrrr..

and for more pics, check out my fb (most probably u've even done that ady) =.=

signing off,

Gan

The Man Who Can't Be Moved - The Script

2010-02-12T01:09:00.001+08:00

Been freaking addicted to this song lately.
First heard it in one of the most touching scenes in Ghost Whisperer 4.. And THANKS to Chan Ming, I've got the song name, and have been listening to this song almost everyday!!!!
Great lyrics too.
How is this guy THE man who can't be moved..

Is there really such guy in the little corner of the world, waiting for HER to appear? Hmm, I wonder......

What is L-O-V-E ?

2010-02-07T23:40:00.004+08:00

Just read a little email from a friend, with the title :
What love means to 4-8 years old babies?
Thought it would be something interesting, so i checked it out and found myself looking at all these little quotations by kids on what they think is love.. It's just something so beautiful and innocent and maybe I'll share a few with you here. *wink*

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth." -- Billy, aged 4.

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening the presents and listen." -- Bobby, aged 7.

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate." -- Nikka, aged 6.

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday." -- Noelle, aged 7.

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." -- Elaine, aged 5.

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." -- Karen, aged 7.

Love.
For me, I can never tell what love is.
It's a feeling, perhaps. A feeling that you feel towards that special somebody who just never failed to make you feel safe and comfortable.. And when everyone fails you, (s)he'll be right there. You'll be ever ready to give up the whole world just for this person... Perhaps...
Love. Hmmm.....

Well, lets tell the people you love "I Love You".
Be it your coolest dad, your loveliest mum, your girly sis, your L4D junkie bro, or your loyal family pet.
Or your humourous boyfriend, your patient girlfriend, your BFF *always and forever* ....
The words just ain't too expensive.

So long.
Goodnight peeps.

The Script, I'm Yours

2010-02-03T00:45:00.001+08:00

One great band explored in the midnight of silence.

A Night in Palace of Golden Horses

2010-02-02T19:34:00.008+08:00

啊~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
好久没写点东西了啊~~~~~

也许都怪我懒吧？还是真的没东西好写？嗯，最近的生活来来去去也不是练琴看电视过过时间酱，有趣咩？

啊，那还是谈谈上个星期我怎么过吧。（至少我觉得这还值得一谈）

蛮突然的，姐说要和朋友一起在这什么ｋｅｒｉｓ　ａｗａｒｄ帮帮手，用薪水来筹点款酱。我就觉得还挺有趣的，不时都想试试新东西，就说也想去帮个手。和姐负责的正是招待贵宾们的ｕｓｈｅｒ。　

举行于　Ｐａｌａｃｅ　ｏｆ　Ｇｏｌｄｅｎ　Ｈｏｒｓｅｓ, 这

8th Annual Asia Pasific International honesty Enterprise Keris Award 2009

　还挺壮观和大型的。但呵，这地方还真适合拍鬼片的neh 。阴阴酱，还有啊，虽然我真的超爱马，但到处都能见到的马头塑像很是 disturbing 叻 :(　　就连厕所都有！你要我怎么尿得安心啦拜托？镜子呢，就无所不在。　转个弯，又是一大堆的镜子酱。但也还好，至少还能够死命自拍，在关键时刻再梳一梳头，对不？

好好，来说说当天工作的情况吧。嗯，负责招待贵宾的我俩，竟得上妆＋弄弄头发的叻！但这可是免费的哦，嘻嘻．．

看，就搞成这个样子咯！但过后我得戴眼镜啦，不然就朦喳喳的了咯。

再多一张，啊，显得多面镜子的好处？！

过后就的开工了。

首先我们是负责下午的小meeting ，让诸位企业家好切磋切磋下。雪州大臣及YB Teresa Kok都有到来，致下词，开下幕，还有当然不忘了颁奖给这些成功的企业家咯。穿着两寸半的高跟鞋，忙了整个早上，站了整个下午，双腿都酸死了！可说是到了晚上我的双腿已痛得不能多走几步了叻。还有还有，那张嘴啊，更是笑得酸咯～要不然给人说脸黑黑就不好了吧。

下午的event 过后，我和姐就的上楼去准备，就是得给各位大赢家们在预备好的地方签上他们的大名。那时啊，可看见他们那份喜悦的心情，拿着金笔银笔，摆好pose地签名。

呼，终于忙到了晚上的那一场。这回也松懈下来，因为我没负责什么东西的。嘿嘿．．　贵宾们都在大厅里透用餐＋看节目时，我就松一松，在没上锁的Steinbeck 琴那，玩了好一下下。
过后又得根据该公司选出的赢家，把他们一一请到宴厅外接受访问。*心里猛喊：啊~~~~我不想再走了啦~~~~*

但一旦访问完毕，晚会也快结束了。累累累累累累累累～～累！

与众多工作人员拍了大合照后，我们就各自走各自的了。

和姐的朋友说拜拜后，爸妈也到了。呼，虽然是超超累的一天，但总算没白费哦~ 毕竟我觉得这种活动还真的挺有趣的哦~

临散前，与姐的朋友也来张合照。

当然不能少了这相来做纪念嘛～

不早了，得睡了。
明天还有课。
晚安。
阿颜。

变老

2010-01-26T00:27:00.002+08:00

最浪漫的事就是和你一起慢慢变老.....

New Craze in Town

2010-01-14T21:50:00.006+08:00

For once I've got to admit it. I'm so into Korean drama. Ok, Just one, just this one. :)

Boys Over Flowers 花样男子 >3<

Airing on 8tv currently, it brings me to tears (and tonnes of giggles and laughters) all the time..

Mind you, it's not the usual tearie whiny classic dramas, I'd say. It's funny, it's wicked, hillarious and (pleasantly) ridiculous at the same time. Oh and not to forget the heart-wrenching parts when situations tear the young lovers apart..

The rose among the thorns :) Woo Bing ( left ), Yi Jung, Jun Pyo, Jan Di and Ji Ho ( names in the drama.. )

Hot guys in town! Well at least the 2nd and 3rd ones :)

But things started to change when guy meets girl. *sparkles*

And here comes the touching parts..

Gu Jun Pyo.. how should I put this.. Hmm.. He's just so imperfect and perfect at the same time *awwhh* and the thing is, he's not really romantic you see, but when this kinda guys get romantic, u'll just can't help but to appreciate it more than usual coz' you know it means alot. (though guys just aint smart enough to realise that)

Again, an occasional peek, an occasional words of love, an occasional hug wouldn't hurt, would they?

Well then again, the star of the day wouldn't be anyone else other than Gu Jun Pyo ( Lee Min Ho stars ) . The hottest Korean alive I'll say, hands down. I guess that smile of his is melting hearts of thousands of young lovely maidens as well as aunties out there. *wink*

Great movie comes with great soundtracks. Say i'm obsessed but hell yeah I've been youtube-ing the ost much lately and trying to learn one of the songs *wish me luck!*

signing off,

Gan

It's Late at Night .....

2010-01-04T21:55:00.003+08:00

It's late at night and i can't sleep

Missing you just run too deep

Oh I can't breathe, thinking of your smile....

First day of school with hectic schedule that's sooo kelam kabut just make me miss my bf even more. :'(

2010

2010-01-01T22:30:00.002+08:00

It's a new year.

It's 2010.

The year itself sounds futuristic.

Sounds promising. Is it?

Sounds...

To some, it's just another year: school life, workload, burdens and responsibility, challenges and hypes.

To some, new hopes are in mind. The hope to bring greater success, greater happiness.

To me, it's just a new year. A new year that brings me nearer to adulthood. More responbilities perhaps?

Well to be frank, it is times like this, when I'll sit down and go deep into my thoughts, and look back at my actions, that mirror my behaviour.

It is times like this, I'll tell myself that I must stop repeating the same old mistakes that I've been repeating for the umpteenth times.

It is times like this, I'll get emo, believing that I've take some silly pathways in the past.

But it is also at times like this, I'll get proud and all, looking at my previous achievements.

2010.

I want think maturely.

I have to stop procrastinating.

I must control my temper.

I'll draw again.

I'll make cards again.

I'll sing like I never sing before.

I'll cry when my heart says so.

I want to be there when people need me.

I want to help.

I wish to achieve more: in music, in my life.

I want to live like I'm dying.

I want to love like there's no tomorrow.

**********************

It's another day, of another year.

A newborn baby is crying in her cradle.

A mother-to-be is having her morning sickness again.

A pair of young couple is arguing over petty things on the street.

A poacher is smiling as he holds the ivory of an elephant.

An old man is fast asleep at the couch, holding the TV remote control.

A pregnant teenager is choosing some baggy t shirts from her brother's closet.

A nervous young man is wiping his sweat across his forehead as he meets her parents.

An old woman is knitting in her rocking chair.

A little boy smiles as he passes a hand-pluck rose to his little crush.

A woman forces a weak smile at her ex-husband's wedding.

A single mother still eagerly waits for the return of her long-lost daughter every night.

An environmentalist cries as trees are chopped off, rivers are rubbished, icebergs are melting, polar bears are drowning.

A little girl finds out her Barbies were never from Santa.

And I'm just drinking red wine, blogging out in my laptop.

It's just another day, of another year.

***********************

HAPPY 2010 folks.

哭，有何领悟？

2009-12-27T21:08:00.005+08:00

假期快过了；上课的日子又来了。
想起来还真的会怕：怕假期还过得不充实；怕开课后会应付不来；怕开课后会忙得难以抽空去约会。但假期已将告一段落了，也无法怎么去补救什么的吧？

哈哈.. 不过，其实我的假期过得也真的还蛮不错。除了有机会与老朋友见见面，还能陪陪男友，也见了家长，还有他家的狗狗哦! 哈，不错不错。因为男友开课后也超忙的，分分钟好几个月才能见（不算webcam啦。），所以放假就得多陪他了...

Ok，其实叻，今天想讲都不是这些。今天想讲的，还是有关上次论过的 -- 哭。

Well，对我而言，熟悉我的朋友都可能晓得，流泪其实是种解脱。它可说是一种therapy，一种心灵药水。每哭一次，心结都能一一系开。
但有时候，你会发现到自己真的太轻易流泪了吗？还是大哭一场后，却不晓得自己为了什么而哭？

嗯，说起假期，说起流泪，我不禁会想起最近看电影的情景。
说的也是，不懂最近怎么的啊，看的套套戏，我都哭得有完没完的。请问，是最近的戏都很感人吗？还是我近来越来越容易掉泪了？

就说前一阵子，我跑去看了2012。真的真的非常有所感触。
基本上，我的确相信2012的发生。有些人就觉得这实在是太commercialized了，没这必要去相信。但对我来说，我不只是相信，还挺希望2012世界末日的到来。世界末日，是唯一拯救这受损的地球的方法，对不？末日了，一切从新开始，从新出发，不好吗？我也相信把人类给毁了，再栽培出新一代人类，是上帝给人类最好的处罚，因为这一代的人类，都已足足毁了半个地球，还活得了吗？

别说我傻，这纯粹是本人的信念。你有权不信，但没有权去打翻这信念。
嗯嗯... 所以看这部电影时，真的有很大的感触。

也不知不觉地哭起来。为了上帝的壮观举态而哭。为了人类的愚昧而哭。为了人类的自以为是而哭。很矛盾的，同时也为了人间还仅有的那一丝亲情而流泪。

2012告一段落。加速到不久后才上映的Avatar。
啊，这部电影... 该从何说起？抱着毫无期望走进电影院的我，竟会眼睛红透、抱着一颗敬佩的心走出电影院。无可否认的，这的确是部好戏。若要论这故事情节，我觉得每个plot都得到了足够的attention和重要性。若要谈电影特效，那就真的赞不绝口了。漂亮!

但是故事里头，充分的显示出人类的愚昧，人类的自私，人类那颗只为钱财利益而跳动的心。这几点，就足以让我哭红双眼。眼巴巴看着那些自以为是的人类，把原住外星人的家园给毁了，你知不知那是多么的心痛啊？有几幕，我真的看不下去了。

这另一群有生命的外星人类，难道就没有权力保护自己的土地吗？你又懂不懂他们的星球有多magical，有多神圣？眼睁睁地看着他们那与众位祖先联系的大树被人类给毁了，我的心真的很痛，很窒息。

虽然只是一部戏，但就是那么成功地传达了那讯息；那自私人类恐怖的一面。唉....

转移话题。 《十月围城》 。

相信这部该是我第一套令我在影院里哭得连鼻涕直流的戏。
戏份难以释说，嗯，能说是十几位无名英雄为了保护一个陌生人，而做出的牺牲，换取了中国那历史性的革命。真的非常的感动，尤其是当你看见个个不理生死的英雄在搏斗，以他们伟大的牺牲换取中国后代的福。眼看一个个英雄为革命而牺牲，心酸啊！

而就在甄子丹饰演的赌徒在与满清派来的杀手搏斗时，我就开始哭得不清不楚了。双方出的每一拳，踢的每一脚，都让我心惊胆跳。只记得当时的我，心里不停念着：谁都能死，就是甄子丹不能死。结果他的一死，更让我哭成泪人。

还有前晚又看Titanic ，嗯，看了好几遍，结果也是一样，哭得悲惨。Jack一定要死的吗？真的不能不死吗？唉... 我一个人坐在沙发上大哭，原来哭出声来，真的挺舒服的啊。

流泪，真的能够释放自我，能够疏解压力，能够找回自我。

你，又有多久没哭过了呢？

My Brand New Nokia 5530!!!

2009-12-10T20:47:00.002+08:00

Just got myself a new Nokia 5530 recently. I was expecting myself to get a Sony Ericsson C905. but when I got to the store, Paul ( my family always buy phones from him..) wasnt keen about the idea of getting a C905. There's alot of prob with the phone he said.. Then he recommended another SE. couldnt remember which one though.. I didnt like it because I didnt really see much difference of it compared to my K750i.

Then I thought of my Kah Chun's new Nokia phone. Ok I admit lah I was being real forgetful and I thought he is using Nokia 5530. So I asked Paul about it. And he showed me and let me tried. Hmmm, not bad, not bad at all.. Touch screen, 3.2 MP 's cam, wifi lagi.. And it only costs RM750!

So I was really giving this 5530 a thought, then I asked Kah Chun about it.. and it turned out that he's using a 5800.. *geez great* I asked Paul about 5800, RM950, similar functions, just that 5800 has 3G.. Dad wasnt keen about the idea of getting an extra 3G for like 200 bucks, so we stuck to 5530.

And there you go, we went back there and bought it two days later! :)

And still exploring the wonders of my 5530 now!!! >.< *Muaxx ~*

p/s: well I do have to admit that I'll miss my 2-and-a-half-year-old SE K750i .. It had been a great companion to me for allll this while :) I didnt trade it in, so once in a while, I can still check out on it.. *glad~*

小学生涯的一段情

2009-12-06T16:56:00.004+08:00

长大后的6D班级照。

虽然不是每个人都在照片里头，但是这区区21个好朋友和班级任老师的小聚会，已可说是我一生当中，珍贵的回忆之一了。想下，时隔多年，我们这班孩子，心里都还有彼此，还会很有心的，忙里抽空，与多年没见的老朋友聚一聚，这可是多么地可贵啊~

只愿每一年的聚会都能很成功，每年的聚会都会有更多人的出现。相信总有一天6D班能完完整整地聚在一起，一起吹水谈天，一起回想着趣味的童年回忆......

小学生涯是我一生中最珍惜的一段“情”。让我认识了“友情”。还有人与人之间那一段唯美的感情：辛酸中的甜美，让人难以忘怀......

曹格-新不了情

2009-12-04T22:28:00.001+08:00

那天，心血来潮，就上了youtube, 随随便便地看看酱。
然后就想起最近常在收音机听见的“新不了情” （萧敬腾的版本）。
Search了一下。
嗯，嗯。
过后再找了些其他版本的，都听了下。

最后还是觉得Gary的版本比较好听。他在歌里加入了很多情感，唱功非常的棒。听了会有股莫名的感动，眼眶还会水水的。

Reunited!

2009-12-01T20:47:00.003+08:00

Chidhood Besties Reunited!

What if?

2009-11-24T20:09:00.003+08:00

What if I just want to do nothing?

What if I just want to sit and stare at the screen?

What if I just want to lay quietly on the grass?

What if I just want to spend my day by watching people?

What if I just want to sleep the whole day?

I'm tired.

What if I just want to close my eyes?

Will you remember me?

What if I just want to do nothing?

Absolutely nothing.

2009-11-21T22:33:00.002+08:00

Tiring day!

Woke up at 8 plus, went to school for Maths test

Took the UCSI van to the train station with Vincent

Talked to a psychology newbie in the van

Then took the lrt to Masjid Jamek station

Got on the monorail to KLCC

Filled up my stomach with RotiBoy :)

Bought concert tickets: the one with Dithyrambic singers & the little Mozart evening >.<

Walked around here and there in KLCC ( no Chanel pls Vincent hehe )

Took the monorail to Dang Wangi station. err.. did we?

no sorry I can't really remember the trail we took after we left KLCC =.=

but somehow we got to Sg. Wang after that

Vincent got his screen protector for his new Samsung Omnia 2

GempakStarz thingy held in Sg. Wang.

Met Quek!!!!!! with her golden/blonde-ish wig

and she couldn't stand that she's not wearing BLACK!!

Snapped pics with her and Vince

Went on to Low Yat to upgrade Vince's phone

but the Samsung Customer Service was closed *liiiikke duh!* =.=

Strolls around Low Yat till my legs sore

Next stop: Times Square!

Getting tired. Too much of walking. ( I hate stairs, Vince.. )

Find one great chill-out place: BASKIN ROBBINS!

lol... had the sweetilicious great caramel waffle.

Rum Raisin and Strawberry Cheesecake. :)

Sat there for quite some time. Just chilling out. Looking at people around.

Guys. Girls. Kids. Clothes. Shorts *ahem*. Skirts. Heels.

Window shopping.

Killer heels. I love 'em all! Especially those Oxfords.

Can someone buy for me?? :'(

And omg those cool tees in Ed&Ed.

Brilliant! * Play Station?! lol.. inside joke! *

I gotta go off by then. But just realized it was raining like so freaking heavy outside!

I couldn't even take the lrt like that =.=

So I called mummy. Dad came to fetch me :)

Vincent window shopped for a while and headed back to KLCC for a concert.

And me? went home and had dinner with my family and grandparents and uncle.

My day :)

Fun!

原来流泪也是一种罪？

2009-11-19T22:37:00.005+08:00

“IQ好又怎样？EQ却是那么的低。”

这句话依然隐隐地绕在耳边。
因之前的事而早已泣不成声的我，忙着把眼泪擦干。可是越擦，眼泪越是流。结果流得满脸都是，又被骂了一句：“总是那么的emotional。”

这句话，什么意思？是在说我太情绪化不是件好事吗？很惹人厌？流泪是错误的吗？现在的我很丢脸是吗？我哭，我情绪化就是代表着我彷徨无助吗？坚强的人都不哭？还是要我像个不流泪的无情动物，才显得我EQ好？

有时我会觉得流泪是种无助的symbol，所以总会想要刻意不流泪，把自己装成很坚强。自然而然身边的人也不禁觉得我是个开朗兼没烦恼的人，也是个很坚强的女生。
但事实上，真的是如此吗？

这样会窒息，真的会。

有时候，心里憋着了一大堆心事，憋得快喘不过气来。但就是不愿意与其他人分享。觉得自己的问题，就好像是自己的小秘密。把问题与心事都藏在心里，就仿佛把自己的一部分挽留在身边。
可是最近也发现了，原来当你有个倾向的对象，有个宽广的肩膀正为你接着你的泪水时，心头的大事就能够被放下，心中的结就能解系。这，也不尝是件坏事，对不？

抛下坚强的面具，露出一副软弱，一副陌生的面孔。这样的我，你认识吗？

不晓得。

对我而言，流泪从来不是一种罪。
就像Sammy郑秀文曾经说过，

眼泪是用来流的，并不是用来忍的。释放真正的情感是人享有的基本自由。爱一个人，不应以泪为耻。哭，有时是一种廉宜的心灵药水。每哭过一次，脱离悲痛就更多，距离快乐就更近。

上五楼的快活- 3. 多少

2009-11-13T20:43:00.003+08:00

我用尽所有方式
找个人给我安慰
度过寂寞的黑夜
我问守候的天使
也许她能够体会
这无助让我很累
走到无路可退
我还能相信谁

用多少天

用多少年的跌跌撞撞才找到终点

用多少伤痛的心，爱才不离开身边

用多少谎言去掩饰彼此的不完美

要用多少个世纪让我看透一切

我走在这个城市

熟悉又陌生的脸

有谁能给我安慰

我问守护的天使

也许她能够体会

这无助让我好累

走到无路可退

我还能相信谁

用多少天

用多少年的跌跌撞撞才找到终点

用多少伤痛的心，爱才不离开身边

用多少谎言去掩饰彼此的不完美

要用多少个世纪让我看透一切

我没有任何防备
没方向到处地追
没翅膀却好想飞
我努力顺风跟随
黑或白找不到个绝对
全都是灰

Mika. We Are Golden. Happy Ending

2009-11-07T22:10:00.002+08:00

From Mika's latest album>Boy Who Knew Too Much, I really think that "We Are Golden" is one of the best tracks.

The lyrics is somewhat inspiring, cheeky, young, vibrant.

What about the music video ( I hate to say this but I can't post the video here so pls click here to view it. ) ?

Aha, it just made me smile ^_____________^

Mind you, I'm not talking about how a half-naked swinging and jumping and spinning around man makes me smile.

It's the idea of the vid. The concept. The direction of the song and the video.

The toys, the colours, the atmosphere, the decors, the room. YES THE ROOM.

And MIKA. I think he did great in the music video. It was so carefree. Very much sink into the mood of the song I'll say.

Just like the song lyrics:

We are
not what you think we are, we are golden, we are golden.

Young and teenage-like.

The moment the song starts, I felt that this video is gonna be something worth watching. And indeed it was. It is.

From how it starts,, at 0:28, ( arrgghh can't post ah the vid... T T )

And 1:05, I definitely see traces of Jim Carrey!! ( Count Olaf, anyone? ) Well in fact there is lots of traces of Jim C. in this video huh?

1:58, just make me grin grin grin! ( love the action/dance/swing/move/watever is it )

and gosh, I just the idea of 2;10, don't you? and NO ONE ( read: unless you are visually-challenged aka blind :P ) can even miss the scenes how pink lasers coming out of his body!!! it's EVERYWHERE! bluek :P

and his vocals do give me goosebumps sometimes. it's a good thing! >.<

Do check out the rest of his songs in this album, Like: Toy Boy, Blue Eyes, and Good Gone Girl. Catchy tunes and really worth listening to ..

I got his previous "Life in Cartoon Motion" album, and guys, if you havent heard of the song "Happy Ending" (nice music video too!) , I would assume that you landed in the wrong planet. And check out his "Any Other World" and "Over My Shoulder". Something different for the taste buds. ( no no, in this case, your hearing buds? is there such thing? lol.. XD )

Anyway, hope you'll enjoy! :)

When Randomness Struck..

2009-11-05T19:42:00.008+08:00

When randomness struck.

When I look at the night-sky.

When the moon hides behind the mist of all.

And I just want to say that I'm exhausted.

Tell me. Am I breathing? Am I still breathing?

Sometimes, I need a hand to hold...

I need a shoulder to cry on....

Hugs. Yes I need hugs. I love hugs.

An occasional peck on the forehead. Or the cheek will do too.

Can I have love?

Yes, I love you.

GAN

UCSI University Choir Concert

2009-10-21T21:20:00.012+08:00

*pics courtesy by Kendrick Ng. ( Click me! )

Faculty of Music, Social Sciences and Design

- School of Music -

presents

UCSI University Choir Concert

After weeks of practices, ( choir practices and respective sectional practices ), music students in UCSI University would now be able take a break from choir :)

Just like the tradition in UCSI's School of Music, the end of semesters would usually be marked with the choir concert. And in this choir concert, all music students ( namely from junior concert, senior concert, and concert choir. ) up to certain semesters are required to perform in the choir, as it is part of their final assessment in the particular subject - CHOIR!

As for me, just graduated from high school last year, I'm taking Foundation in Music ( currently 2nd semester ) and being a freshie around the University, this is only my second choir concert that I had participated.

So frankly, this is really something new for me. Grades awarded and assessed through choir performances, whereby we are to performed in front of a hall-ful of audiences.. ( as all the students are supposed to bring a friend or two of theirs to the concert. ) It's just spectacular.

Nevertheless, this choir concert is very much like a big gathering for many music students in the university. We get to meet some friends that we don't really get to meet everyday.

This time around, I've joined the Concert Choir ( from the previous Junior Choir ) , conducted by Mr Ian Lim, a well-known vocal and choir teacher, as well as the Artistic and Music Director of our Malaysia's very own Dithrambic Singers. While on the other hand, both the junior and senior choir are conducted by Ms. Rachel Tan.

What about the song choices? Yes yes, rest assure, the songs were definitely interesting enough to keep the audiences listening. Ranging from Japanese children song "Hotaru Koi" - ( by Junior choir ) , to some traditional Spanish carol " Fum, Fum, Fum " ( by Senior choir ) , and even some early Christmas songs " Christmas Glory Medley " ( by Senior & Junior choir ) .

As for our Concert choir, two songs were chosen: "Requiem Aeternam" from "Requiem" by John Rutter, and "Three Australian Bush Songs - Dawn, Birds, & Sunset" by Iain Grandage. *kah koo kah koo kah koo koo kah koo kah koo kah*

Performing 10 songs in total, the three choirs definitely did a great job.

Just like the popular Chinese saying: Ten minutes on stage, ten hours off stage. ( or did I get the translation correctly? ) After weeks and weeks of practices: repeating phrases, catching the melodies, hitting the notes, controlling the dynamics, and memorizing the lyrics as well as the performance directions, the concert was the peak at the end of the day.

It was satisfying, I would say. I did my best, we ALL did our best. And the best part of all, we had the time of our life. We enjoyed the music and hope the audiences enjoyed as well.

At the end of the concert, Mr. Ian even told us that he heard someone from the audiences actually thank us for the performance, after we sang the "Three Australian Bush Songs" . Again, as I said, it was satisfying. The appreciation from the audiences towards our performances are priceless.

And the thing with being a music student is that, it's not only about playing instruments, it's not only about making good music.

It's all about how you discipline yourself, how you learn new things ( and keep them with you for a long time .. ), how you would want to interact with the others.

Or how you would want to interpret music, how you manage your time and work (perform) under pressure.

For the record, being a music student is NO piece of cake. *shakes head vigorously*

Many would have the misconception that music students only play music all day long, and no exams and it's such an easy job.

And many would even think, music students aren't academically-capable.

Tell this to any music student.

And get ready for the dramatic disbelief expression ( okay or maybe a faint head-shake of disagree, and a small laugh of sarcasm.. ) and a looooong sigh and looooooong speech of what are we, music students supposed to do.

You know what, not any ordinary people can manage to excel in this field.

You need extra-s.

Extra hardwork.

Extra talent.

Extra determination.

Extra confidence.

Extra discipline.

And For yours truly here, I'm doing my best.

I've chosen this field, regardless of numerous opposing objections towards my "mistake" made.

It's not a mistake. It's a choice.

And I'll need to prove myself in this fiels.

To be an aspiring musician.To be an aspiring singer.

Music is part of everyone's life, it's just that music plays a BIGGER part in my life.

Quoting the recent MPO's advertisement tagline:

"If music be the food of love, we'd be seriously over-weight!"

And I couldn't agree more.

So that wraps out the night. The concert.

And let the pictures do the talking! ( well in fact I've talked alot! )

* Picture Courtesy by Kendrick Ng.

The Senior & Junior choir performing "Let The Whole Earth Stand in Awe" by George Frederick Handel, and "Christmas Glory Medley" arr. Lari Goss.

Both songs were conducted by Ms Rachel Tan.

*Picture Courtesy by Kendrick Ng.

Concert choir performing "Three Australian Bush Songs" -(Acapella. )

Conducted by Mr Ian Lim. ( fondly known as Lao Shi - teacher. )

Me, together with best friend Ng Hong Liang and Mr. Ian Lim ( middle ).

With the members of Junior choir.

From left: Emily Low, yours truly, Soh Rou Yen, Amelia Ng ( behind ) , and See Tsuey Yun.

Best buddies: Vincent Choo, Amelia Ng and Ng Hong Liang.

Together with Phaik Sim! *wondering what'll happen later during choir?*

For more pictures and videos, pls check out the album at my Facebook page. ( err, though "the use of unauthorized recording deivces is stritly prohibited. " oops! )

Breakfast at Vincent's. And a Workaholic's Confession.

2009-10-16T22:30:00.006+08:00

Well the title sugests it all. Breakfast at Vincent's. Nope this aint got anything to do with Breakfast at Tiffany's. Haha~ Take this literally, would you? :)

Yup, after aural dictation midterm, i had like one and an half hour of free time before getting to work ( yes, i'm officially addicted to work too, but i will get to that later.. ) .. So I went to Vincent's house, and yeah, he cooked breakfast! *thumbs up and wink wink*

I totally tried to help, but no doubt, I failed miserably lar. >.<

okay let's look at the pics~ ( hehe vincent, didnt know i'll blog about this right.. )

Milo!!! with oatmeal~ but reaaaaaallll NICE! Thanks Vince! ;)

Cooking kolo mee... I think this is the correct name for it >.< Vincent in action!!!!! hehe I really really tried to help ok? but yeah, I helped taking pics too :)

There you go! the kolo mee ( with minced meat and eggs~ ) and hot milo~ yummy!!! Thanks again vincent for the wonderful breakfast.. ( still can't believe you cooked! )

MAKAN TIME!!!!

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yes, if you are real close to me, and you'll know, I'm a workaholic. Well, in the sense that I actually work at the marketing department of UCSI. Surprise? No? ok,, for some reasons somehow ( read: scholarship ) , i'm required to work at the department, 65 hours every semester.
And at this very moment, I'm totally so addicted in working! Like today, I worked for 5 hours.. and this whole week I actually managed to clear about 14 hours. Practically, I'm like a part time staff in the marketing department. I key-in datas, I photostat stuffs, etc etc... And everytime I count my hours cleared at my scholarship form, I just feel like i'm counting money~ *drama queen's hyper look*
And at the end of this year, I'll be going to help out at various education fair, trying to clear my hours.. ( ok, the confession is that, I've exactly no problem clearing my hours. It's just a mere excuse for me to escape my studies and WORK! for this sem, i've cleared almost 40++ hours. And it's only October. :P )
This might not make any sense to you, but it makes great sense to me. I enjoy my work/job. I like my supervisor > Ms Wati, and my so-call "collegues" ..
In the office, syok sendiri-ing. >.<
Well i gotta take the chance to camwhore when the boss aint looking! *look around*

p/s:
to you, pls don't get mad at me.. Just remember the promise I made. I won't break my promise.... and I'll take care of myself ( of all the workload) , but dear, u need to take care of yourself too ..

GAN

Of Bejeweled Blitz and Regina Spektor

2009-10-12T01:26:00.003+08:00

You know you are addicted to Bejeweled Blitz when:

(i) the ultimate purpose of facebook is no longer stalking people but to bejeweled-blitz. ( yes it's now even a verb.. )

(ii) you are supposed to finish up your assignments or whatsoever but you're only to find your cursor heading the Bejeweled Blitz bookmark at the bottom of your FB page.

(iii) you are constantly seeing Bejeweled Blitz.

(iv) you see white toilet tiles, you see coloured bejewels. and your mind can even work on how to win scores.

(v) you can't help to play Bejeweled Blitz even in the lecture hall, as your lecturer is babbling in front. and...your friends can't help either to look on and whisper excitedly: " there! the red colour one! "

(vi) as you're blogging this few words your mind is STILL on Bejeweled Blitz. ( AND played a few times..)

yes.

these are the symptoms.

if you are having these symptoms, you are then, officially addicted to Bejeweled Blitz.

one of yours truly's high scores. well if you look cloooooose enough, you can see i'm at the 2nd of the list. with 232,750 high score. yeah yeah shoot me pls i'm being so narcissistic. I'm an addict. I need my daily dosage. But I'll never be over-dose that's for sure.

You know that you're addicted to a song/singer when:

(i) Your youtube page is nothing but the song/singer's music videoSSSSSSS

(ii) Your player couldn't be anything else better but just that song/singer's songs. In fact, you downloaded the whole album or you got the whole playlist. -and still collecting-

(iii) You even started searching for the photos of the singer. (stalker? no. )

(iv) You search for the song's chords or music sheets. And when you found it, you got so hysterically hyper, you play the song immediately, even it's 1 in the morning.

(v) You memorized the lyrics of that song in just one night. "repeat" is on.

Then yes, again, dear, you're officially addicted to that song/singer's songs.

And, you ARE reaaaalllyyy addicted to these stuffs when you actually decided to blog about them at 2 in the morning (when u gotta wake up at 6 the next day ) , just that you believe that you need to pay a tribute to these ultimate pleasure of life.

Regina Spektor- Laughing With (Official Music Video)

2009-10-10T23:00:00.001+08:00

stumbled upon this song at some stranger's blog.
heard of her name, but never heard her songs i guess.
and this, is something worth stumbling upon. :)

" no one's laughing at God, when they see the one they love, hand in hand with someone else. "

Dixie Chicks - Not Ready to Make Nice

2009-10-05T22:16:00.001+08:00

I heard the song for the first time on tv. Grammy awards. They won a handful. Catchy song, I thought.
Then I started googling it. And youtube-ing it. By Dixie Chicks. Wonderful song.
Later that I know, I chose this song for my vocal class's exam song. How comfortable I feel, singing this song. How emo I felt. How much my tears would want to drop. How much I like the music video. How despairing I felt, singing "they say time heals everything, but I'm still waiting."

Wounds don't seem to heal.
Words don't seem to be promising.
Love don't seem to grow.

Or should I just "shut up and sing" ?

8tv Chinese Carnival ~

2009-09-26T23:14:00.005+08:00

8tv's Chinese Carnival at Times Square was such a pleasant and fun day for me and my parents. ^^ We always wanted to go to previous carnivals, but somehow it always clashed with some other events. So today, NO CLASHES!! wheee~~

After my major class at 2-3, we headed to Times Square, and when we got there, it was practically so crowded that we were kinda blur @.@ People were q-ing up, some on the stage, Gary & Xiao Yu hosting some games ... Then we realised that there were different booths for different games, gifts giveaway and small happenings >.<>

This was the longest and most crowded booth of all i would say. It was the "Ho Chak" booth, by Orange, Chris and Winson.. Well, practically the gifts were all foodies -sweets, can drinks, instant noodles, cookies, snacks etc- so i guess that explains the loooooong queue huh? :) But me and mummy didn't queue up for this lah.. *~*

Instead, I went to the "I want to be a Model" booth (it's the name of the show, not that i intended to join any show..) to win some stuff if possible. *ahem* well let's say I was really this little inch near to get some M.A.C make up stuffs, but instead i got one packet drink and chewy sweets >.<

Anyway, 8tv Chinese Carnival definitely promises some great pics with 8tv's famous celebs and hosts *wink*

One of the "I Want to be a Model" reality show's host, Jeffrey 庄惟翔. He was sitting there, so I went up and say hi :)

Project Superstar's 云美鑫~

Me and 小玉, one of the hosts for the carnival. She's so tiny. i mean, i AM gigantic.. *never deny that though..muahahahahha*

Dylan Leong. 梁佑诚~ Another famous 8tv host. Very friendly too. Well of coz I would want to assume that these celebs are supposingly friendly and always -if not, then most of the time- oblige to photoshoots and signatures. Right?

I didn't really follow their show that much nowadays. They hosted "Ho Chak" new seasons. Though I've always preferred the pioneer host of the show> Yoon and Rickman. They were -and still are- hillarious.. Well Orange and Chris did a good job too.. But what's best about the show? THE FOOD!!! muahahahahha!!

Rickman -Ah Rick- and Ah yoon~ 最佳拍档! They are so funny all the time, cracking jokes, and not faking it. Great hosts. :)

My parents :) Had dinner with them at 欢喜地.. Nice atmosphere they got there you know. Nice decor too. But the waiters' attitude.. er.. just say they are weird. I don't get it. One of them got this really blur but grumpy face. And when daddy asked for the bill, she let out a loud "huh?!" before turning around to get the bill, grumpily. Like wth? =.=

My first proper meal including rice and meat and vege. Coz ever since I extracted my wisdom tooth, I had porridge almost everyday =.= ( except for a day that i had fried rice, and i literally swallow the whole plate of rice coz I couldn't bite.. )

So this meal was like a key to my freedom~ >.< love it..

Aha, and we orderes some cheese-baked mussels to celebrate my freedom -to eat- .. HAHA!

Before we headed home, we had this wonderful Baskin Robbins waffle ice-cream! Choc-dipped waffles with peanuts; 2 scoops of ice-cream> Rum Raisins, Strawberry Cheesecake; strawberry toppings, whipped cream *melting away* ~~~~

Forget the price, it was worth it, of course! No doubt, I'm totally BR-crazeeee~~

So that was my day. How's yours?

Signing off,

Ah Gan

Hello, Dolly! - Original Trailer 1969

2009-09-20T22:31:00.001+08:00

In this few days of the Raya holiday, and since I'm practically stuck at home as I had my second oral surgery ( to extract my wisdom tooth as well.. ) , I was hooked up on youtube, particularly this musical > HELLO DOLLY.. Thanks to my piano instructor again..! :)

Happy 21st Birthday, SISTER!!

2009-09-13T23:35:00.002+08:00

12th September, 2009 was such a memorable day!

yup, u got it right ( too obvious! ), it was my beloved sis's 21st birhday! We had a "party" or sort of gathering+dinner+birthday celebration at my place.. So we invited friends and relatives and some neightbours in the neighbourhood to join in the fun as well! cool huh?

And I actually invited a few close friends of mine: Kah Chun, Chan Ming, Vincent, Liang, Amelia, Keng Hong, Voon Ying, Li Yean and Choi Yieng. Well it made sense of coz as they all know my sis too. :)

Well at noon, i had my major class at uni ( great that my instructor Mr.Boyle gave me another Beatles piece. ) then i met Vincent...

Later on at around 5.30, Chan Ming ( my driver of the day! aha! ) came to my place - the caterers were setting up the stuffs then- and went on to fetch Kah Chun :) after that we headed straight to the lrt station and get Liang, Amelia and Vincent. well imagine that the four of us gotta squeeze at the back while Chan Ming and Liang sat in front. well it wasnt THAT bad afterall. >.<>

My friends were the earliest as u can see... Followed by my maternal grandparents and uncles and aunts. Time was approaching 7, friends and more relatives arrived. Dinner then began.. ( Fried rice in da' house eh! ) hehehe :)

The rest of the night was history.

Well what could i probably say more about it, rather than it was one hell of fun and great night?! I really enjoyed my night. It was like a gathering of these various people in my life, in my family's life. Getting to know each other, chatting around. Met some common friends of different "gang"......

Well i gotta admit i was pleasantly surprised to know that my great childhood friend of almost 13 years JERN ZHEN is actually my current best friend KAH CHUN's classmate in uni ya! hahahaha~ *winks*

And when it came to the time to cut the cake, me and Vincent played HAPPY BIRTHDAY on the piano~ Thanks ya Vincent! *hugs*

Later on that night, the few of us : yours truly, Vincent, Kah Chun, Chan Ming, Amelia and Keng Hong went on a ... er... "tour" around my house. and they got in my room, and saw the posters.. HAHAHA! i LOVE my posters! coz they are wonderful! ^^ so that my wall arent dull.

Well, u must be wondering where are all the pics? mm hmmm,,, I dun really have them now, so i'll either upload them later, or just upload them on facebook. :)

so chill and check it out later peeps!

and a BIG thank you from the bottom of my heart to those who came to the party and made it so success, i believe. *hugs and kisses* >3<

Stay tuned for more,

signing off,

GAN

Merdeka Joy Ride

2009-09-01T19:32:00.001+08:00

Merdeka Train Party!
Thanks to The Star and RandomAlphabets.com!! :)

MERDEKA!!!

2009-08-31T20:55:00.005+08:00

SELAMAT HARI MERDEKA!!!!

yes yes, first of all, today's 31st of August!!! Malaysia's 52nd BIRTHDAY!!!

Happy birthday Malaysia!!!! :)

Well, as WE all know, the pic above is like the pic of all, of our very own Father of Independence > Tunku Abdul Rahman , declaring our beloved country: Malaysia's ( Malaya ) Independence!!

MERDEKA!!!!!

>>>>Fast forward some 52 years later<<<<

TA-DA!!!

Malaysia proudly presents to you:

Merdeka Train Party by Random Alphabets!!!

If you got like no idea of what is this, well it's something like decorating the interior of the train ( in this case, monorail lar ) for a party, only here, to celebrating Malaysia's birthday!! and in a flash mob/guerilla style. Sounds cool? *nods*

So, I attended the event, meeting in front of KFC in KL Sentral. ( went there as a BRAT! hehe! well thanks to Niki for asking us BRATs to join in the fun! it's totally the coolest thing i've ever done! Thanks again Niki! ^^)

The crowd before the event actually started. Zain, the "big boss" of Random Alphabets gave a short briefing to the people around there, in front of KFC. Niki also briefed us BRATs, and five of the BRATs > me, Mark, Zhi Min, Alex, and Dhinesh were appointed to be the Balloon People! aha, yes you heard it right, the balloon people! hahahah.. ( it's still so much of the UP spirit.. ) So then we headed to te titiwangsa station to help out and be ahead of the others.

well okay, the rest are practically history. let's just jump to the part where the trains are decorated!!

>>>>>>

The flags, balloons, ribbons, RA cards, party stuffies, stencil paints ( not in the pic )!! and we just kept singing Happy Birthday, Negaraku and Tanggal 31 in the train!!!! *wheee~*

and this, yours truly, with the rest of the balloon team, waiting for the next train to come and run in and release all the balloonsss!!

aha, alex and mark, in the train way back to Tun Sambathan station for the group photo. hahaha guys the balloon ain't lollipop okay? >.<

Mark and Khatijah!

okay, that's all for now, it seems. i'm still waiting for the others to upload the pics! and i'm just very tired now, gotta prepare for school tmr!!! yes, i love the way how i end my semester break > Merdeka Day and THE Merdeka Train Party MTP !!

signing off,

Saya Anak Malaysia.

UPDATE !!

2009-08-27T19:53:00.003+08:00

ha Sorry guys for not updating recently. I was really busy during the hols. Well, first of all just let me sum up all the things accordingly to the dates, and i'll do this in the most simplified and straightforward manner ever possible.
and hopefully i remember what happened. :P

Monday: Theory Foundation 3 Final Exam!!
> marked the end of 1st sem's finals.
> Wonderful Day! >.<

Tuesday: Vincent's Big Day!
> Vincent moved from the 16th floor to 13th floor.
> With the help of his family : me, liang, amelia ^^
> I hate lifts.. T.T
> *16 going to 13, 13 back to 16, then again to 13, 16,13,16,13....*
> headache.
> first time listening to Vincent playing the guitar.
> he played 小薇 , so lum~

Wednesday: Driving lesson
> after almost 4 months didnt touch the steering wheel =.=
> disastrous day with hell lot of nagging and scolding.
> and dumping my dignity & self-confidence down the deep blue sea.
> met Melanie during driving lesson.
> then head to Uni for work.
> relationship with Watie got better! ^^
> straighten my hair!

Thursday: High School Day!
> Went back to my high school > SMK Taman Tasik.
> met fav teachers.
> but pn. Susila and Pn. Chan was busy >.<
> Talked to Mr. Tan (addmaths guy~)
> kept saluting me for having the courage to study music. -__-
> chit chat with Chun Hoe, Jessie, Michael, Esther b4 their exam.
> cute guy asked for my number *bluek :P*
> Driving lesson AGAIN! (ARRGGHH)

Friday: Work!
> had SR with liang & sis.
> miss liang alot.
> headed to marketing department and worked!
> love prelude & fugue >.<
> night, went to Mid Valley with sis, her bf - CK and his sis.
> watched UP!
> caw caw rawr~

Saturday: I love my day!
> Morning special prayers at Auntie Sim's place.
> SIFU! *bows with respect*
> movie outing with BESTIES - Kah Chun & Chan Ming.
> G.I Joe, fabulous!
> Kenny Rogers Roasters
>*eat till the mother oso cant recognize* (inside joke with the boys~)
> lovely day ~ "happiest day in my holiday" quoted.

Sunday: Book Fest!
> Popular Book Fest!!
> Bought Mitch Albom's For One More Day
> and Jimmy Liao's Beautiful Solitude
> and Adeline Yen Mah's Falling Leaves
> Change my first Swatch's watch strap.

Monday: Driving Test!
> Great! I've passed! Thx to Auntie Sim ( Sifu ) !! >.<
> Met old fren Kah Fei.
> Gonna get my license in a week's time, i guess.
> no guys, i STILL can't drive w/o the scrutiny of my mum!!!

Tuesday: Shopping!
> Went to Bangsar to shop! hehehe^^
> Little Black Book is awesome!
> Bought a dress, a "Little Miss Giggles" tee, & a black blouse.
> Rosso is nice too! *buy 1 free 1~* --bought a pair of shorts

Wednesday: Shopping again!!
> Went to Jusco ( Maluri )
> Met Grace and her mum and uncle ^^
> Went to Mid Valley - bought another pair of shorts from Voir
> Star-struck!
> Xandria Ooi in Mid Valley!!!!
> And Sazzy Falak, Belinda Chee, Top Model finalists etc..

Thursday: Orientation Day!! ( today lar~ )
> On duty!!
> Worked at the registration counter for Faculty of SSLA.
> Oskar is one hell lot of FUN! ^^
> Simon is SO funny too!! -LOL-
> ~"tomorrow, tomorrow, i love ya, tomorrow"~
> gosh, modern band frm School of Music played "Come Together" by
The Beatles!
> Then, became the facilitator for Group 7 > cue sessions~
> Led new music students to C113 for further briefing & course selection.
> Waived 10 hours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *evil and satisfied grin*

That's all for now, tmr i'll need to go for the 2nd day of the orientation T.T *tired*
Ciaoz~

Another Chinese Tag!

2009-08-22T20:58:00.004+08:00

Alamak! Chinese tag lagi?!?!
HAHAHAHA kena buat jugak aye~

*基本資料
1. 你的名字：阿颜
2. 所謂的血型：O咯~
3. 很棒的星座：双子，超棒？>.<
4. 要記的生日：21/06 哈哈，说了就一点要礼物哦！
5. 男女人妖：男生，女生，假假分不清楚~

*日常生活
6. 起床的第一件事：“多五分钟~”，然后继续睡！
7. 愛梳頭髮嗎：吓？还好吧？短发就少梳啦！
8. 愛玩電腦嗎：看心情咯。其实有时还挺闲的。
9. 會做家事嗎：觉得内疚时 >.<
10. 有養寵物嗎：曾经有养小乌龟。

*衛生習慣
11. 是否有口臭：没有呱？哈哈哈！
12. 愛洗澡嗎：很舒服的咯！
13. 有飯後潔牙嗎：ermm, 一时时咯。
14. 看到桌上很亂會收嗎：不会！哈哈哈~
15. 有潔癖嗎：稍微。

*飲食方面
16. 一天幾餐：肯定多过三餐！
17. 愛吃速食：讨厌！开始有点反感了！
18. 早餐如何：甜甜的。我最爱吃甜甜的早餐！
19. 飯後甜點：哈哈，没有啦。
20. 宵夜有否：NO。

*關於愛情
21. 有沒有情人：没有咯 XP
22. 跟他/她的發展：零发展。
23. 暗戀過幾個人：是仰慕，不适暗恋咯。
24. 現在還有暗戀的人：不算是暗恋。
25. 初戀幾歲(暗戀也算)：小学呱？你知道了又怎样？

*朋友人緣
26. 有很多朋友嗎：多。知心的却不禁寥寥无几。
27. 佔有慾強嗎：你告诉我啦。
28. 有很討厭的朋友嗎：就有不爽的咯。
29. 承上題,你想跟他/她說：但他/她不惹我，我不惹他/她。
30. 親情友情二選一：親情

*最後結束
31. 點你的人：亲爱的阿颖！
32. 他人如何：乖？哈哈！
33. 他有做過讓你生氣的事：应该没有吧。
34. 填這份問卷很煩嗎：烦！得打话语嘛！问题也都几费一下！
35. 換你點別人了，想說甚麼：不点咯！:P

Majlis Anugerah Cemerlang SPM 2008 anjuran UMNO Ampang

2009-08-16T00:40:00.004+08:00

Just got home not long ago from this Award Night by the Biro Pendidikan UMNO Ampang , to receive my award regarding SPM. ( yeah isn't spm like a long time ago ? )

It involves a few schools in the Ampang district, including SMK Tasik Permai, SMK Taman Kosas, SMK Bandar Baru Ampang, and of course my school > SMK Taman Tasik! (just to name a few...)

So a number of PMR/SPM/STPM recipients were invited to this event.

Well it's then like a tiny reunion for me and several of my besties in high school ^^

Here, from left: Voon Ying, Li Yean, me, Kiew Ming, and Hon Tzer.

Receiving my certificate and CASH from the VIP> (erm sorry but i dun really remember her name... Dr.. er..... sorry! ) but she did deliver a pretty well-versed speech. :)

Here, she actually asked me where am i studying now. So i said UCSI. Then she asked what course. I was like *wheeeee* MUSIC!

and there it went. the usual response. *10 As belajar music?!*

and then she actually told right to the people in the front row about it. HAHAHAH. but then she added that it's a good thing :)

Group pic! but not everyone. It was actually just the five of us that wanna take photo with the VIPs. but then some of the recipients joined in as well :)

Last but not least!!!! the CASH >> RM150 !!

and er... no... the certificate isn't here. haha. just the letter... >.<

Okay, so nothing much from me sekarang. Let's continue playing Bejeweled Blitz! ^^

方块字之tag!

2009-08-14T19:57:00.003+08:00

I shall do this in Chinese, guys! >.<

★.PART ONE
Q01、你的大名？★ 颜慧婉（你们都不懂的吧？哈哈！）
Q02、你認為什麼才算是真正幸福？★ 正当你一个人回想起你自己的生活时，嘴角会微微上扬，心中有股暖暖的温柔与甜蜜，那，你的生活是幸福的......
Q03、你們覺得友情重要還是愛情重要，為什麼？★ 无需置疑的，友情是最重要的。有时啊，好友比情人还会爱你，对吗？
Q04、你相信天長地久嗎？★ 不信，总觉得有点可笑...
Q05、你現在過得快樂麼？★ “我要快乐...”
Q06、如果有秘密，你真的會做到坦白的告訴對方嗎？★ 秘密是我的一部分，不怎么会告诉他人。
Q07、喜歡小Baby嗎？★ 是乖的，大家都会喜欢吧？
Q08、覺得友情是永遠的麼？★ 只要是真心的，是会互相迁就及礼让的，友情会是永恒的。
Q09、希望自己多大結婚？★ 我能说我不想吗？:P
Q10、你會為他做自己從來不會做的事情？★ 好事就也许吧。我不是个伟大的情人，拜托。
Q11、你覺得女生捲髮好還是直發好？★ 什么都好，不要lala就好！
Q12、最想去哪裡旅遊？★ 澳洲！
Q13、一輩子都不會忘記的事？★ 感动的画面，幸福所在处。
Q14、如果愛一個人，是不是要拼命挽回他？★ 爱一个人，需要拥有吗？
Q15、看到天空你想起的第一個人是誰？★ 他。假浪漫的他说过要一起看月亮的。
Q16、你會愛他一輩子麼？★ 此时此刻，他还不是那所谓的“他”
Q17、喜歡你的人和你喜歡的人，你會選哪個？★ 两个都不愿选。这不是个选择。
Q18、你會以何種方式表現你對他（她）的愛？★ 顺其自然。
Q19、如果看到自己最愛的人熟睡在你面前你會做什麼？抱著他？★ 把身体卷起，继续睡啦！
Q20、如果你想痛扁一個人，你希望那個人是？★ 我没那么暴力吧？
Q21、你會後悔過自己的決定嗎？★ 决定了就别后悔。
Q22、現在最迷什麼？★ 音乐。
Q23、你是好孩子嗎？★ 那就得看看好孩子的定义咯！
Q24、覺得愛情和麵包哪個重要？★ 面包！
Q25、如果你失戀了你會怎麼樣？★ 与恋情不扯上关系，我不愿失恋。
Q26、如果你的BF（GF）經常不回家的話，你會怎樣？★ 我不愿去过问。但可能会埋怨？
Q27、现在给你勇气，你最想做些什么事？★ 一个人去环游世界。

★.PART TWO
Q01、是誰傳給你這份問卷的?★ RouYen！（不好意思，我不懂你的话文名。）
Q02、你們認識多久呢？★ 近4个月了！
Q03、他/她對你來說重要嗎？★ 哈哈，都是朋友，重要！
Q04、你與他/她的關係是？★ 朋友+同学
Q05、請問他/她的興趣是？★ 玩音乐吧？
Q06、你覺得他/她的個性如何？★ 好孩子？哈哈哈！
Q07、他/她在你心目中是幾分？★ 拜托，酱都要打分？！
Q08、睡覺前第一件事？開風扇？喝水？★ 闭上双眼！
Q09、你的偶像？★ 陈奕迅！
Q10、你喜歡的季節？★ 春天吧？总有种“一线希望”的感觉。
Q11、你打工麼？★ 没有啦。
Q12、打工次數？★ 1 ~
Q13、你想去的國家？★ 越多越好！
Q14、你討厭什麼樣的個性？★ 自以为是，特地展现/张杨自己的。
Q15、你會抽煙麼？★ 不会！一点也不酷！爱惜生命啦！
Q16、你會喝酒麼？★ 红酒
Q17、你常哭麼？★ 嗯……
Q18、你常笑麼？★ 哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！
Q19、你喜歡去哪玩？★ 哪都好！
Q20、去玩時喜歡自己一個人去麼？★ 不会吧……
Q21、是假日時你都睡到幾點？★ 8-9 吧 >.<
Q22、今天的天氣是？★ 唉，又在下雨了……
Q23、你們知道最遠的距離是什麽嗎？★ “世界上最遥远的距离不是生于死，而是我就站在你面前你却不知道我爱你。”

★.PART THREE
Q1、我的BGM好听么？★ 什么呵？
Q2、你的皮包里有什么说说吧★ 水瓶，纸巾，MP3，pendrive，笔…
Q3、你生命中最重要的人是？★ 朋友，家人
Q4、啥东西是你喜欢吃的呀？★炒饭！*无需置疑的事实！*
Q5、现在有喜欢的人吗？★ 正逃避。
Q6、你還喜歡他(她)嗎?★ 不懂。
Q7、你觉得我坏吗？★ 吓？

★ 被点者：
~ 鸿亮
~慧倩
~景优
~幸奕
~舢进
~靖凯
~俊豪
~家豪
~蕙颖

Exam Period.

2009-08-12T20:02:00.003+08:00

Okay.
So Malaysian Music's final exam is over. As a matter of fact, I think i'm going to miss this subject coz after all this ended, i think i kinda like this sub ya know? :P
Anyway, I dun really have much things to crap about.
Just to say,
I cant afford to take any break for the time being.
World music is coming. Haunting~ =.=
This friday................
AARRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
as quoted:

*LXander - may the force be with you my young padawans*

wish me luck.
ciaoz.

UCSI Choir Concert

2009-08-07T20:55:00.004+08:00

Hey Guys. Just a quick update in the midst of the Final Exams craze~~

Yesterday ( 6th August ) was our UCSI's chori concert. It was such a lovely evening. There was junior choir, senior choir, concert choir and jeju choir (UCSI choir).

The night started off with our junior choir, performing two songs> Sheep May Safely Graze & Ev'ry Time I Feel the Spirit. My family > parents + sister were there too. ^^ And yesterday was the day we all met each other's family. ( Liang's parents and amelia's family.. :) )

Lovely. just a few pics. For more (pics and videos) , pls do check out my FB!

Here, the MAFIA family!!!

anticlockwise: Liang, Me, Amelia, Vincent and Xing Yi!! =)

Cool gals in town! >.<
As quoted: this, the "extended family" !!
With two of our seniors: Irene and Jia Wai, both on far left and right respectively.

Nothing much for now. Need to study!!!!!! ARRGGHH!!!

ciaozz~

To Chester Chin -hope you'll read this!-

2009-08-02T21:13:00.004+08:00

okay, I'm supposed to be cracking my head over my World Music assignment >

" Kenyan & Tanzanian Witchcraft & Ritual Music".

But something that happened this evening sort of stunned me, or should I say, something that was kinda sweet and delightful happened.

So here's the thing. Remember the Doll Love - Barbie story ? ( vincent & liang, DON'T laugh!! haha! )? My friends (you know who you guys are..) actually googled my name and found out about this article > me playing Barbie when I was young.. and they certainly had a great laugh at it... =.="

WAIT that's NOT the point.

okay so when i told this to my mummy, it actually gave her the idea of googling my name! >.<

and.......

the result.....

was somewhat delighting or surprising!!

There was actually a blog post by a guy called Chester Chin, with my name(s) in it!

well actually back in 2007, he wrote a story > Thousand Deities to the Star Stuff@School section, and it was AWESOME and touching, and yours truly definitely enjoyed it.. so I wrote a comment/review back to the Star, and it was published.

Okay u got the idea, long story short, recently he saw this Barbie article ( oh WHY Barbie honey~?) and there you go, he realized that's me. GAN HUI WAN, that wrote a short review for his story. >.<

so this blog post of his > here , was actually to thank me! haha ^^

well that's certainly surprisingly pleasant to know he cherished that particular review by yours truly! :)

so here you go, Chester Chin, your story was awesome, I like it alot, and i guess there's alot more people out there who love it as well! It is indeed my pleasure to read such a wonderful story by you, Chester. Hats off again.. haha.. *hope you'll read this* :)

Signing off,

Gan..

RIP Yasmin Ahmad

2009-07-26T02:28:00.004+08:00

Rest in peace Yasmin Ahmad, your work will always be remembered in my heart. The muhibah ads, the movies that touched the deepest edge of my heart, and your work gave us, Malaysians a refreshing and rare sight of our local scenes. You are the precious jewel of Malaysia and always will be. "Sepet" shall remain as my favourite movie of all time.

Malaysia shall mourn upon your death, for your presence in our life was indeed precious.

Rest in peace. I do believe that you're now in a better place.

Syafinaz - Phantom of The Opera

2009-07-23T12:12:00.003+08:00

RTM JAZZ ORCHESTRA-GEMA REMBULAN

2009-07-23T12:12:00.001+08:00

James Boyle, my major instructor.. ;)

Of What I Had the Whole Day..

2009-07-17T23:43:00.005+08:00

Milk. Mixed oatmeal: oat, dried barley, cornfakes, dried raisins, some unknown crunchy stuffs. Chipsmores. Soda biscuits. Longans. Rice. Spinach soup with egg. Fried lady's fingers with dried shrimps. Steamed fishcake. A sip of Bak Kut Teh soup. A slice of BKT's pork. Tiger cookies. ~~Rice~~. Chicken rice. Chicken wings. Waxed meat (cubes/diced) . Spinach soup. Greenies veggies. Pear. Longans. ~~Plum~~ Lime juice. Chipsmores.

SMILE :)

2009-07-15T21:54:00.003+08:00

Suck up all your worries and frustations and stress.

Just.....look into the mirror and smile.

look around, any friends,family, strangers?

just...... SMILE..

Be random, it'll make your day better.

for that second, for that moment, forget your worries.

Smile.

Cheer yourself up.

Cheer people around you up.

相信唯美的笑容，都会让身边每个人的一天亮丽起来。
微微上扬的嘴角，也许你不知道它是有那么唯美的作用。

~ GAN :)~

回应你的...

2009-07-12T16:43:00.010+08:00

已有好一段日子，这些方块字都没出现在我的部落格了。

也记不起，上一次是什么时候了。

在银幕前发呆了好一整天，妈的，突然觉得自己好颓废哦！

刚才就跑去读了朋友刚写好的post，而那一瞬间，脑海莫名地浮现了好一系列的事情...

什么事？挺抽象的，无法形容。

但很肯定的，我突然想起那篇《假装》，那篇我为《晨曦》特刊而写的...

其中一句：“太多的伪装，令我找不回自己了。”

戴着面具过这一天又一天，意义何在？

会窒息。

会喘不过气来。

会失去自己。

之前，为《展翅》特刊而写的那篇同名的文章，更是其中一篇，说出心底压抑已久的悄悄话。SPM考试时，也不时选择了《自由》，因为就觉得这话题总是最贴心的。

“人生有着各种我们不得不遵守的条规，这都令我们窒息了，我真得受不了！渐渐得，我完全崩溃了，生活的重量把我压得永远都爬不起来了！我的生活不属于我，好笑吗？它已属于北跳下的条规了......
- 《展翅》 ”

“我始终不明白，要动物跳火圈，
到底有何乐趣？给它掌声，不如给它奔跑的空间。 - 几米 ”

颜。

Specially Dedicated

2009-07-07T23:33:00.006+08:00

Friends

They love you, but they are not your lover..

They care for you, but they are not your family..

They are ready to share your pain, but they are not in your blood relation.

They are .........

FRIENDS!

True Friend..!

Scolds like a DAD...

Cares like a MOM..

Teases like a SISTER..

Irritates like a BROTHER..

And...

Loves you more than a LOVER!!

#It's a forwarded email that i got from a best fren of mine.

Here, specially dedicated to Liang, Amelia, and back to the best fren of mine-KC #

signing off with love,

GAN

Eason Chan H3M

2009-07-05T22:50:00.003+08:00

Okay, i'm doing this just to keep my bloggy alive *obviously*
coz practically you can find all these pics in FB but yeah, lets do this again here, in my dreamscape.
So yea Friday was the day~ I went to TARc to catch Eason Chan in action! He was here in Msia to promote his latest album H3M. My friends bought the album for me as my bday present, as it was at a discounted price (RM35) together with 2 tickets for the mini concert plus a tee. (which i'll be wearing tmr!)
After class and dinner I met up with my high school friend > Voon ying and headed to TARc. It was kinda jam, and when we reached there, we were neither late nor early, though the queue was really long. Yit how, mun chun, choi yieng,soo hau, li yean and her bf were there together with us too. Keng hong was there too, but he went kinda early so was ahead of us in the queue.
ok ok, cut the crap. It was such a lovely night, not only that i got to catch Eason live AGAIN, i got to meet my old high school frens and gosh we missed each other so much.
So as we entered the sports complex, we waited for just a while (after the deejay talked some crap with some contestants on stage..) then there he was, EASON on stage.
He was in this simple red tee with words: "Capture every moment of your life" which actually has this significant meaning in his new song: 沙龙.. With his live band, he sang 3 songs from his album ( 于心有愧，沙龙，Allegro Opus 3.3am ) and the chorus of 七百年后, before coming to the question sessions by fans.
I think the songs were great, like 沙龙 if you really pay attention to the lyrics, it's all about taking photos in daily life and how significant it is. Kudos to famous lyricist-Wyman.. Though it was a bit disappointing that he didnt sing my fav song in the H3M album > 不来也不去.. The lyricist by Albert Leung was wonderful too.
fyi: I actually downloaded all the new songs and listened to them thru and thru for the past week.. and the songs, i tell, are great. Try googling "Allegro Opus 3.3am" up.. Again, the lyrics were funny and quirky at times, depicting how to write a song.. *sort of*
okay then was the signing session. everyone just queue up again to get our CDs signed. I told him that the song 不来也不去 was great, and he looked up, smiling sincerely, followed by this real firm handshake. ( just like the one i had last year..)
Moments like this would definitely be cherished...
cut this short, the whole 交流会was rewarding. Not all singers are good when it comes to live band but hell yeah, Eason is good! hahhaaha.. ( I think i heard Liang just boo-ed me! LOL! )
so here's the pics!

Cheers,

Gan

*Eason Chan Forever!*

hahahhaha... cant smack me, liang ! >.<

遙遠之國 - Dithyrambic Singers

2009-07-01T21:07:00.001+08:00

seriously, I had goosebumps all over me everything I watch this vid, listening to the haunting and beautiful melodies! and it got kinda creepy somewhere in the middle.
Well indeed they are really GOOD. Enjoy this.

cheers, peeps.

SyncTone Choir ~小黄鹂鸟

2009-07-01T00:22:00.001+08:00

SyncTone Choir.
One of my friends sings in this choir and as I stumbled upon this video, it turned that she's the lead singer! ;)
Nice!

'2012' Trailer HD

2009-06-30T20:51:00.001+08:00

Promising trailer, gosh I wanna watch this!!!

20th, 21st, 27th JUNE 2009.......

2009-06-27T23:40:00.009+08:00

sorry sorry sorry for the super late post.

okay i was really busy last week, midterms you see.but this week aint any better, since i have to pass up one assignment and prepare two presentations.. well that would explains alot right? the late post. the dead blog. ( but still fb alot *guilty* )

anyway, last week was a happening one, i would say.

#1 > UCSI Prom Night ( as i typed this, i'm feeling very much out-dated. *duh* it's LAST WEEK! )

anyway, i'll keep this short. me, tim, xing yi, thong ee, sasa, ally and thong thong went to prom. funny, camwhore alot, cool performances, nice cakes, great night, my creepy make up, eye-catching toga, fake lashes, my brows (ignore if u dun understand) , heels, miss amelia and liang soooo much, sorta countdown for my 18th bday~ here, the pics. For more, click here.

right after make up thingy. *eww* i looked so...so..... different.

with sis.

with liang! the local r&b artist, as the guest judge for UCSI got talent.

classy pic with tim!

music students rock! *claps and cheers*

#2 > My birthday celebration.

okay, nothing much in particular. Just went for buffet dinner @ Neway K-box. well just what i love > SING K! lovely night, green mussels, cakes (again!), papadam, nuggets, cheesy fried rice, potato salad, songs, songs, songs, Eason, "disneyland" etc.. Pics>>>

me, singing Eason's 七百年后. See Eason was at behind? ^^

With family!

Camwhore~

The non-fattening CAKES! *self-comfort*

#3 > The Wonderful Outing with Kah Chun! ^^V

On Saturday (27/6) , after my major, around 11.15, BFF > kah chun drove to UCSI to pick me up and headed to Leisure Mall ( to be exact > Neway KBox again) to sing k! seriously, i'll never get bored of singing *like duh!*
and it turned out to be my late bday present! i mean, he belanja me.. *hugs* thanks lah Chun~
we even met jervey and jeff and ngar mun at leisure mall (lm) , wanting to see jervey's idol - Nicholas Teo (ahem, sensitive word ya, liang? hahaha .. i SO do not look like him! )

lovely day, sing sing sing, a-mei, eason, gary chaw, wang leehom, leona lewis, faith hill, *when you believe* - which made me think of amelia! , camwhore, nice nice potato salad and corn~ etc etc....

Later some hong kong artist like 陈豪and 黎耀祥 a.k.a 柴九 were there, @ lm. and it was so freaking crowded! we couldnt see clearly so we just hang around at Popular, then head home!

( Berry is so cute! >.< )

In the car~

we were actually such lousy camwhores that our pics didnt turn out right >.< ( note: half the face gone?! ) well at least this, is kinda nice! ( Liang came straight to mind when mention about pro camwhores! what a rep! lol... ) two of us again! see landy wen at the screen? we were actually singing 屋顶 that time! hehe...

more camwhore sessions~

me! (Gan & her best fren > as quoted by Chun >.< ) well, there are more, but nope, i cant upload them up here lah.. hehe ^^
anyway, there's all for now, folks.
love you all always~

GAN.

Tunggu s'kejap ya?

2009-06-22T19:06:00.002+08:00

sorry i really dont have time to blog, this time.

fyi, i'm having midterms now.

so though i wanna blog about the prom and my birthday happenings and pics.. i memang tak de time lar.. *sigh*

so you guys gonna wait..

wait..

and wait...

and wait....

Random Crap

2009-06-18T20:59:00.006+08:00

Who am I?

There's no point searching.
You know it's there, but yet, there's no point searching.
There's no point trying so hard, searching for something that's almost impossible to seek.
You thought you lead a perfect life.
You thought you had everything.
Well in fact, practically you DO have everything.
but what's the point?

I'm lost.
People, i'm feeling so miserable.
I'm losing her, am i?
I'm losing the girl that has been with me for the past 18 years, the girl that i thought i understood,
the girl that I once loved.
the girl that I once admired.
I'm losing myself.

I no longer know what's happening to me. I'm not in control of my life anymore, am I? well technically speaking, i'm still me. but frankly speaking, i don't know who am i anymore? Things that i've done, speak for myself, and all these thoughts and behaviours and actions are supposed to reflect me. supposed to....

But now, see, things arent the same anymore. Sometimes i dont understand what the heck am i doing. though i do have reasons for the things that i did ( do ) , they don't make sense and sound solid, often. I always say i know what i'm doing, but do i really know? Perhaps.

The person i look in the mirror. A stranger. Someone i thought i know.
Do you know me? i can see the one in the mirror shaking her head.

It's like,
I'm on this endless road.
When is it going to end?
Will I understand life, particularly my life if this road ever comes to an end?

I'm Gan, Gan Hui Wan.
Am I?
People have high expectations of me. They think i can do it.
They expect me to act very very much like an adult.
No monkey business. No mistakes. No flaws.
No jokes. No sorry-s. No oops-s.
I'm not given any chances.
Once I screw up, I'm doomed.
DOOMED.

Success, sometimes, should not come too early in life.
It will only make yourself suffer for the next few yearsssss.
In fact, their presence (success ) in life will only make one awfully proud of oneself.
Yes? No? Perhaps.

Sometimes, i do think that i'm very lucky.
I achieve success, merely because of my luck, not my capability to perform or carry out duties or work or so.
Why i could score in exams?
Luck.
Why i could .. this and that.. ?
Luck.
Everything. Just mere luck...
Seriously, i mean it. I really do think luck is the only thing i have with me now, so that i'm able to move on. On occasions, (actually most of the time..) i don't even think i deserve any single thing given to me coz i'm not worth it. ( anti-Maybeline's tagline )

All these things, will eventually sum up as - STRESS & PRESSURE ?
aye, indeed.
From a typical chinese primary school, i learned to deal with high expectations and pressure since young.
Competitions. Responsiblities ( of being the head prefect and class monitor at the same time - and mind you, that was only primary school years ). Studies. Relationships with teachers and students.
still remember there was once.. i wasnt in good mood and greeted a teacher in laze while yawning. then the next day all the teachers knew and actually urged me to apologise, for some reasons you see.
so.. *speechless*
Pressure.
Good thing or bad thing?
Well, i would love to take it as a good thing..

Dealing with all these things, once in a while, when emo-ness struck me, i would question myself: is what i'm pursuing now worth pursuing? is the way i'm living my life the way i want it to be? Or does my presence here make any significant differences to others?
gosh, it couldnt be any harder to answer these.

staring at the screen, i couldnt help but to wonder again.
Am i a workaholic? well, yes actually, if i wanna be one. i can actually shut myself out of the outside world and just work. ( study or practice or read random stuffs or draw.. ) and sometimes i hate talking. when i think i've talked too much, i'll keep my mouth. too lazy to speak out.

Speaking of that, i've talked way too much tonight.
Shutting myself out of your life, i will, i guess.
I'm not going to act stupid, you see.
well, i'm not your typical girl, as a matter of fact.

*If you can't handle me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best..*

Who am I?
sorry, the answer's still out there, somewhere.

Super Woman - 曹格

2009-06-16T22:00:00.001+08:00

i'm not your superwoman..

1st Asia Grand Piano Concert outing with besties~

2009-06-13T23:02:00.009+08:00

Yes, I LOVE FRIDAYS!

most probably it's because of the only class of the day which is in late evening, and i get to spend hours in uni since morning.

And yea did i mention about the empty practice rooms? aye, fridays are kinda quiet, and practice rooms ARE kinda empty.. so forget about the rushing and searching for prac, rooms.. *hehe*

******************************

well speaking of the friday > 12th June,, it was mere lovely.. (read: AWESOME! )

we went to secret recipe (the 2nd consecutive friday, as the matter of fact) , then to >> "the BOMB" >> the 1st Asia Grand Piano Concert in KLCC, with my bunch of frenSSS.. Some of our faculty's lecturers and students performed too! ;)

well then..

it brought back nostalgic memoirs, in fact.

i mean.. not the concert ( it was just my first time.. ), but the classical songs..

oh gosh, i missed classical music, indeed.

How lovely, how exciting and breath-taking to witness such beautiful concert, featuring 4 grand pianos, and performers from 5 countries ( Malaysia, Hong Kong, Korea, Indonesia, and Japan.. )

The whole concert which ended around 11 plus, was truly amazing! 8 players on the piano at the same time?! what a lovely experience! well i definitely LOVE the "Mahjong-on-Stage" piece by 4 Hong Kong performers. and yea, the Libertango was awesome too.. ;)

cut the crap, here's the pics. ( practically curi most of the pics from the PRO > liang.. hehe ..)

ok, let's start off with my dinner! Char kuey teow @ Little Penang !

Three of us! Amelia, Liang and yours truly! ;)

Kitten, simmy and Tim having their dinner! oh gosh, simmy looks soooo pretty yea!

Ally ( extremely CUTE ) and Amelia~

Xing Yi & Tong Yi! the two besties aka sisters!

Now, THE CONCERT~~~
Pianos!

Before the concert, look at the line! the crowd going crazy! WHEEEEE~~

Me and Amelia in the car.. gosh sorry for my bad cam-whoring technique! >.<

me and liang ..

Kaki siapa?!

*haha we were kinda bored waiting outside for the concert to start so....*

okie let's see.. Clockwise: tim, xing yi, me me me, liang, ally and amelia!

Tim & Xing Yi! oh-so-gorgeous!

Me and liang again! haha... >.<

***********************************************

So practically that's the day. Fun Fun Fun! ;)

signing off, GAN >.<